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No Longer Hiding My Pain (pt 3)

Lance's POV

My eyes nearly popped out of my eye sockets when I heard him out. He turned his attention to the ground and I started thinking.

'Oh no... what do I tell him?! I'll just honestly tell him. Hey I have no idea and whenever I think shitty about myself these cuts show up :) that's stupid...' I sighed then opened my mouth.

"Well... I actually have no idea..." I trailed off as Keith looked at me in disbelief.

"So you're telling me that you have no idea how cuts on your body got there?" Keith asked with a 'do you think I'm dumb' look on his face.

"Look I know it's hard to believe but I actually don't know. All I know is that I was thinking and then I suddenly felt pain everywhere. I have no idea how it happened!" By this point I was super frustrated and wanted to smack him.

"Likely story Lance. Look I just wanna know so then if something does happen then... I-We'll be able to do something... so please Lance, tell me. I'll I mean we'll be able to help." Keith ended up pleading again.

'I don't even know why you're doing this. You never did this in the past, why now?'

"How? How will you be able to do something when I, the person who has these cuts, HAVE NO IDEA HOW THEY GOT THERE?! If I can't even help myself, I don't know if any of you can. Please leave. I wasted too much time on this, when I could have been training." I crossed my arms, suggesting for him to leave.

He didn't get it.

"Lance, this is serious... I didn't wanna have to do this but guess I'll have to. Let me do this and if I'm wrong I'll leave and stop bothering you." Keith finished off.

"What is 'this' thing you're going to do?" I asked completely confused.

Keith's POV

While Lance was confused, I grabbed his left hand and pulled up his sleeves. Lance's arm yanked back the second his skin was exposed but I already saw it.

I looked at him, horrified yet confused.

'Didn't he always boast about his loving and caring family? He's always so goofy and happy, making others happy as well... how could he cut?!'

After a long period of awkward silence, which he surprisingly didn't use to get away, I asked him why he cut. Obviously he didn't answer. I was about to leave when Lance grabbed my arm.

"Where are you going? Please don't tell the team. They-they don't need to be worried about something like this. When they're already so busy and...I just don't wanna bother them anymore." Lance's voice sounded so.... Broken.

'I should tell the team but...' Glancing at Lance I decided not to. Probably the most stupidest thing I'll ever do in space but, I don't wanna make him hate me even more.

"On one condition...you tell me why and let me help you through the it." I needed to know why he would do this to himself. And I'm gonna do it this way.

"Why do you even care?" Lance's lips formed into a small frown and he let my arm go.

"Cause...I'll-I'll tell you if you agree to my condition..." I really hope his curiosity makes him agree.

Lance was thinking and I couldn't help but look at him. He looks so gorg- shi.t got distracted, oops.

"So...?"

"Ugh, only so you don't tell the team. Now can you leave, I'll come by your room later."

I smiled a bit and walked out, feeling very accomplished. Then I frowned, starting to think about why he would cut, also ways I could comfort him.

I walked into my room and sat down, thinking back to the garrison days.

~flashbackkkkkkk~

"Hey Keith! You suck!! Ha!" Some random dude yells at me when the teacher leaves. The some students chuckled and others continued what they were doing.

I roll my eyes as I continued to stare out the window, and muttered a "you swallow". Surprisingly this dude heard and got up his seat and slammed his hands on my desk.

"WhAT dID yoU sAy?!" He yelled in my ear.

I slowly turned my head to face him and glared, hard. "What's wrong? Never heard of a comeback?"

Some students snickered and others rolled their eyes, knowing what was gonna happen next.

The dude grabbed my shirt and pulled me closer, "Look little emo boy, this is why your parents Fuc.king abandoned you, cause you're a mistake and a-"

He didn't get to finish his sentence when I slammed my fist into his face. He let go of my shirt and stumbled into a table. Everyone stopped talking and stared at out direction.

Then the teacher comes in and guess what they see? A 'innocent' student hit by a student who has a discipline issue.

"Keith! Stop picking fight! Go to the administrator's office!" The teacher pointed towards the door.

I grunted and pushed past the dude and stormed out the door. After having another talk with the administrator, I skipped the rest of my class.

'Why do they always bring up my parents?!' I ran into my room(idk where but somewhere in the school probably? :/) and slammed the door. Making sure I locked it, I released my emotions.

I started throwing stuff around and then flopped onto the bed, stuffing my face in my pillow and screamed.

"STUPID STUPID ASSHO.LES! ALL THEY KNOW IS HOW TO BE AND ASSHO.LES!" My screaming was muffled out by the pillow.

I got up and grabbed my pocket knife that I keep hidden, then I started reaching for my ankle. Reason is cause I normally wear shit sleeved t-shirts.

I pulled up my pants and went a little above the ankle and sliced away. While doing so, I gave myself negative thoughts about my parents and the hate I get from my fellow classmates.

After about 2 minutes, I look down to see blood pooling up and I go grab a towel. After cleaning up, I bandage my cuts and go wash the towel. I flop onto my bed again and fell into a deep sleep.

~end~

I don't want anyone to go through the suffering alone. Shiro has helped me later on and I stoped cutting. I did have some depressing thought but Shiro helped me though it.

I was hoping Lance didn't go through this for a long while time, cause I know he wouldn't ask for help. Speaking of Lance, where is he? He should be here by now.

I walk towards my door and then it slides open, making Lance bump right into me. Or the other way around. But whatever.

I take a couple steps back and gesture towards my bed. He takes the hint and sits down while I close the door and lock it, just so this stays between us.

"Now Lance, please explain to me why you cut." I went straight to the point and sat next to him.

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Another cliffhanger!! Idk tho. :/
Like this is taking too long to write. But I finally have a schedule for updating this book!! Every other Friday. Hopefully. Yep. That's it. Have fun reading.

9/22/18: Updating every other Friday is NOT happening. Sorryyyyy T^T