Langst

My Peace

Basically Lance already killed him self and now it's the after affects :3
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Hunk's POV

I finally had the courage to grab the paper on Lance's desk, opening it to see his last written words. Reading it out loud, it said:

Dear everyone,
Don't you get so tired of life?
That's always the first thought that pops into my mind when I wake up. No matter where I am, on earth or in space, this question is always here.
It sucks, cause my answer is always yes but I can't do anything about it...
And believe me, I tried.
Always always end up failing, until now.
I'm a cowardly loser who can't do anything right.
I can't even shoot straight, always messing up in training.
I can't shut my mouth, always distracting others.
I can't even kill myself properly, someone always finds me.
I don't know why everyone tries to save me.
They don't need to.
I want to leave.
I want to stop bothering them.
I want to finally be at peace.
So why?!
WHY!
Why does everyone want to save me!
Everyone screams at me, pushes me away!
I just want to help!
So why?
Why is it always me who's yelled at?
Why is it always me who's being punished?
Why is it always me?
Why me?
Why?
I just wanted some peace...

I finished, covering my eyes and taking deep breaths to not burst into crying again.
After a deep silence, Shiro quietly says
"There's more on the back."
Turning the paper over, I started crying again, dropping the paper and walking away.
I walk into my room, shutting the door and stuffed my face into my pillow.
After crying for what seemed like hours, I opened the wrapped box, which was given to me by Lance...right before the...
Seeing a cute little yellow lion plushie inside with new baking materials and a note, I felt more tears drop.
I took the note out and read it, wishing it wouldn't cause me anymore emotional damage, but alas, my wish wasn't granted.
Hey Hunk, my bestie,
Sorry for doing this to you.
I told you I was getting better but I guess I'm pretty good at lying.
Sorry.
And don't go thinking it's your fault for not noticing my lying, cause I've been training to cover up my shitty depression.
So it ain't your fault.
I'm really going to miss your hugs and your amazing cooking...
I'm sorry...
Maybe...I'll see you in another life, I hope you'll forgive me...
Don't grief over my death to much, haha
From Lance
Grabbing the plush, I hug it and curled myself into a ball, wishing Lance was still here.
"Why? Why did it have to be you?" I softly whisper, falling asleep.

Keith's POV
After Hunk left the room, I made my way to the letter and read the words, running to my room, not wanting to be seen crying.
When the doors slid open, I sat on my bed, letting the tears flow out of my eyes, frowning and hoping this was all a bad dream.
I punch my bed several times, throwing everything I had around and did my best to not scream and curse.
I spotted the box in the corner of my room, which had my name on it, given to me by Lance beforehand.
I open it and see a red lion plush, something shiny and a note.
Grabbing the red lion plush and the note, I started to read.

Hey Keith, my rival,
Hope my death doesn't change you.
I know all we did was argue but I was hoping we could have at least ended in good terms.
Sorry if you remember me as a loud mouthed useless paladin.
If we ever meet in another life, I hope we'll be good friends.
I hope the switchblade will help you in the future...somehow?
Good luck in life.
From Lance

I let the paper fall onto the floor, sitting down and seeing the shiny object.
A switchblade, with L.M. engraved on the handle.
I squish the red lion plush and got up, punching the wall.
"Why? Why did it have to be you?" I screamed, punching the wall even more, not caring about the pain.
"And you aren't useless." I whispered, stopping my punches and stood facing the wall.

Pidge's POV

Seeing Hunk and Keith both leave after reading the back makes me wanna punch everyone and everything.
I sniffed, looking at Shiro, Allura and Coran, who still hadn't read the back yet.
I pushed myself off the floor, walking towards the paper and after reading those last words, turning my head quick and ran to my room.
Inside my room was a huge mess, and in the corner was a box given to me by Lance, my name written out on the sides.
"You little shit, you broke the fucking promise!" I muttered, pushing past the mess and opening the box, seeing a cute little pigeon plush, and a green lion plush.
I put both of them on the ground, finding a note and some napkins.
I read the note.

Hey Pigeon,
Keep being the sarcastic little bird you are.
I know you think I got better, and actually, I think I did.
But something just clicked, sorry for breaking the promise...again.
Let's just meet up in another life and then you can be angry at me, hopefully I don't have crippling depression :,)
See the napkins? I'm hoping it helps in cleaning your messy ass room, hehe
Stay healthy, adious~
From Lance

"Still trying to be fucking funny huh..." I sit on the mess in my room, throwing the napkins across the room and slamming my fists into the mess.

"I'm gonna beat your ass in the next life..."
"Why did it have to be you?" I muttered to myself, trying to cheer myself up with the two toys Lance left with me.

Shiro's POV

There was almost no one left, Coran still comforting Allura.
I knew I had to read it, so I walked over and looking down onto the paper.
Seeing those words made my heart break, and I still don't understand why Lance would do this to himself and us!
I walked quietly to my room, hearing crying ringing throughout the halls.
Inside my room, I see the box given to me by Lance and open it.
Inside was a black lion plush, a bunch of eyeliner and a note.

Hey Shiro,
I've always admired you and I'm glad to have been able to be part of your team.
I hope you won't forget the things I've done and hopefully you've had a good time with me and the group.
I know I might not always be the best but I was always trying. Just to let you know.
And I've heard you in the halls, at night, just, get some rest from time to time.
And don't be afraid to ask for help. I'm pretty, no plenty sure that everyone will be willing.
Also, tell my parents I died a hero, hehe, thanks~
See you in the next life~
Signing off, Lance

"Then why didn't you ask for help?" I whispered, letting the tears fall out of my eyes.

"We would have helped...why'd it have to be you..." I sighed softly, wiping my tears and just thinking about all the times with Lance.

Allura POV

Both me and Coran were the only ones left, seeing as everyone had run off to their own rooms.

We both got up and walked over to the note, seeing the words

"And I finally got my peace."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I know it's been a while...a couple of months...but I hope y'all are still here XD
Idk if I'm gonna continue this one shot anymore cause I'm sadly not into Voltron for real this time :,)
I do like angst in general so I might create another book, but like multi fandom. Or I might just change this book into a multi fandom book. Idk
We'll see (Hopefully not in 3 months again)
Later, angst lovers