The Younger Girl

Chapter 29

Theo POV

     I had tried texting Collae so many times. They weren't delivered and turned green so I guessed she blocked me. I tried Instagram and Snapchat all blocked. I had no other choice but to talk to her in school. She avoided me for a whole week, every time we made eye contact she quickly went in another direction. Her friend didn't make it easy on me either. Just the other day Kaitlyn "accidentally" bumped into me making me trip and stumble.

     "Have you seen Collae around?" I whispered to Jake unaware of my presence.

     "Shit- Theo! Announce yourself before you sneak up on me like that, and no ask Jeremiah, he's probably seen her," he shrugged before walking into his class.

     I texted Jeremiah and asked him if he's seen her today and his stupid ass said who? I called him and he quickly declined, he told me to meet him in the bathroom.

     "Theo you can't be doing that bruh, I'm tired of getting my phone taken away," he scoffed.

     "You act like a dumbass...anyways where's Collae? I have to catch her before schools over," I rushed.

     "Orange weren't you with her for like three months? You don't know her schedule?" He laughed.

     "Five. She's been avoiding me Jeremiah," I groaned. It was sixth period though she was definitely free. I just had to find her.

     "Well I think sometimes she goes on the track, just to like run and shit," Jeremiah shrugged.

     "Sometimes I think you're like really slow Jeremiah, she's fucking pregnant she isn't doing any running! And may I remind you it's March, it's fucking twenty degrees outside dumb fuck!" I whispered.

     "How you come asking me for help and at the same time disrespecting me? See this is why I don't help nobody out caus-"

"She just passed by, shut the fuck up," I shoved him to catch her before she disappeared on me. I walked out and seen her heading to go up a flight of stairs. She's been wearing big sweatshirts almost everyday now, I didn't know much about when a woman starts to show but I knew now was definitely too soon.

     "Collae?" I whispered and she turned around and started to walk faster when she saw me, "Collae wait," I put my hand on her shoulder and she flinched.

I missed getting a good look at her beautiful face. I missed kissing her. I missed embracing her. I couldn't remove all of my post with her on my social media yet because in my mind there was still maybe some hope for us to work this out.

     "Don't touch me Theodore," she said quietly, and continued to put her books in her bag. The fact that she wouldn't even call me Theo let me know she was still angry with me. I hated that she was flinching at my touch when she would melt into me at my touch.

     "I'm sorry about the way things went down can we please talk," I whispered to her, I practically was begging.

     "There's nothing to talk about, was I not clear when I said I didn't want to see you anymore?" She spat and walked away up the stairs. I followed her up.

     "C'mon let's go out and talk," I grabbed her wrist gently," she pulled her arm away and stepped up to my face. Her mouth was so close to mine. If only this was under different circumstances I could steal a kiss from her. I truly missed her. I ruined it by being immature and selfish.

      "Theo...don't touch me, I don't ever want you to touch me anymore, I don't wanna talk, you broke your promise and I'm not giving you another chance. You didn't even support the fact that I'm having your mother fucking baby!" She whispered, "I'm not doing this with you here, you made your bed."

     "But I do now, that's what I'm trying to tell you! I'll be here for you and the kid, I wasn't thinking straight and only about myself, I'm sorry baby," I put a strand of hair behind her ear.

     "No, don't call me baby. We are fucking done," she sniffled, "You left me at the worst possible moment, once someone leaves they'll just leave again, what I'm going through right now Theo...I won't go through it again, I wouldn't wish this pain on anyone, you really broke my heart, not only did you wanna kill our baby you broke up with me cause I wanted to keep it and then you put your hands on me?You've truly shown your true colors and how much you really cared about me ," There was so much I wanted to say but no words could come out my mouth I stood there like an idiot, "It's obvious that we moved too fast and now I'm pregnant, and by the way, when I have this baby, I don't want you near it. Have fun at college."

     "You can't do that!" I scoffed. The only thing I felt I could respond to was her keeping my child away from me.

     "Watch me Theo...this is done, better find another date to prom by the way," she started to walk away but she stopped. I was hoping she'd turn around and say anything that let me know there was hope."Oh and here you go," she took the necklace I gave her at formal off of her neck and threw it at the floor. I stood there for a moment as she vanished up the stairs. I stared at the necklace by my feet and realized we were done for.

I made Collae a promise and I broke it. I ended up just going home. I didn't want to be there anymore, there was no way I could focus at school.

     "Theo what are you doing home?" My mom furrowed her brows at me.

     "Um...I threw up, I'm not feeling good at all," I sighed.

     "Aw, do you want me to make you something?" She came over to me and patted my forehead, "Well you don't have a fever."

     "That's okay, I just have a stomach ache, I'm just going to lay down for a bit," I huffed and dragged myself up the stairs.

     "Okay...I'll check on you in a little."

     I shut my door and plopped on my bed and I started to feel a lump forming in my chest along with some tears escaping my eyes. Collae's words really hit me left and right.

     Maybe I hadn't changed at all like I thought I did? Maybe I was still the kid who just wanted sex and attention? How could I do her like that? Collae is such a sweet girl and I took advantage of that. She didn't deserve that. She didn't deserve for me to hurt her like I did. That kid would probably be better off without me too.

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     I was in great need of attention. I would simply just call Collae up and go to her house. I missed her so much. I needed to get my mind off of her, I couldn't be going this crazy over someone who wasn't going this crazy over me. I couldn't deal with the guilt that sat on my chest. I called a friend and asked her if she wanted to see a movie tonight. I needed to accept the fact that we broke up and she had no intentions on getting back together with me.