Whispers

thank you.

[[calm illusions of heartbreak and pain
swirl around me like euphoric clouds
as they seep through my pores like heroin
and the longing taste settles in my mouth.

i find it riveting how one can hate life so much
that they see every horrific thing
like a beautiful masterpiece
or a precious diamond ring.

i once was happy, filled with eccentric life
i then fell hard into the darkest parts of my mind
and never found my way out of that well
that drowns me in something no one will find

thank you for being here, i know it's hard
thank you for hearing about the disgusting human i am
thank you for listening to my self-pity
and maybe one day someone will find this and understand.

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Cover by Enchantinglypeachy