"i don't say: i am so grateful for the moments you held my hair back or stroked my knuckles or fixed my dress or gave me that little reassuring squeeze or walked me through a panic attack. i am grateful for every night you stayed up late texting me and every tear you brushed away and every pint of shared ice cream. i am grateful for everything.
i don't say: i owe you sunrises. i owe you laughter. i would fight to protect your happiness with every tooth and fiber and atom of my being. i love you deep.
those incredible fingers have held me up through worse storms than i thought i could survive.
instead i say: this is my middle finger. it's very beautifully manufactured. kindly look at it.
and she laughs and i think: thank god for you, for all that you do, for being my friend, for being you."