i don't have a favourite colour yet. i just refuse to select one of most beautiful things on the planet and restricting myself by calling just one a favourite. each one of them possees their own light, light that we cannot see. not that it's not supposed to be a bad thing, having a favourite. ofcourse, have one. maybe i always had one too. maybe i just haven't allowed myself so be restricted to just one. when it comes to colours — i am a new person everyday. i am constantly changing. i am a fan a new one each next second.
sometimes i feel like blue has always been special. like as if it asks me to come home. like as if it holds my hands and politely pulls me closer and tells me to sit down and breathe. as if it just wants me to appreciate the silence.
sometimes i feel like i will camouflage myself into white and call it home when a person asks me "what's your favourite colour?" it reminds me of the pure, the simple. the colour that has no time for luxury, no time for extra, no time for more. it is satisfied and content. but i don't feel like im peaceful sometimes, so lavender/purple/violet makes me free. it makes my day a little happier. purple has a way of smiling at me from a vast distance, like something star-crossed that waves at me from afar, telling me that i exist in your heart, assuring me that whatever i feel is real and it's okay. something that you always have inside of you. maybe that's what my favorite would be.
and then i have this really complicated relationship with black. i love it so much that it blinds me. it demands more from me, every next thing i see becomes black. no it isn't sad in any way, it's so poetic that it gives me goosebumps and i forget how to breathe. it asks me to pick itself to be a favourite and get stuck by it, as if it gets jealous if i pick another. but i guess that's me, i love to make it suffer, I love knowing that it cares.
i have always seen each colour as it's own aesthetic, each colour of its own like a scenario, or a certain emotion attached to it.
so as it rains outside, and i am a girl overflowed with thoughts that I want to remember, im going to sit down and write a colour name, then im going to write whatever comes in my mind when i think about it.
black — stars, an eclipse, the phases of the moon, dark clouds, spray bottles, dust, paint dissolving into water in a cup, crows searching for food, hoodies, wolves howling at the moon, piercings, when the clouds roar, lightening bolts, fast music,
white — my moms wedding dupatta, jhumkay, unmade beds, cat fur, jasmine flowers, neon lights, feathers of a bird as it flaps it's wings, filled backpacks before you go to an adventure, thinking about him, pearls, minimalism, light flowing in from morning curtains, sleeping,
brown — rust, envelopes and letters, coffee seeds, typewriters, crisp autumm leaves, an old-fashioned something, cassettes, a cowboy hat, coffee shops with a beautiful chill atmosphere, mehndi, scrapbooks, craft materials, sketch books, bracelets, pencils,
blue — windows, rain, computer screens, the future, tattoes, missing someone lost, amusement parks, chaand raat, crescents, mason jars, getting a surprise birthday party, winters, jackets, slow background music, chilltrap, blankets, pens,
purple — pastels, signatures that we make for ourselves, empty journals and notebooks we don't know what to fill with, skateboards, vintage tea cups, soaps with lavender fragrance, glitter, cute looking coffee cafés, telescopes, galaxies, chilli milli, things you just brought from the stores,
yellow — swimming pools, eyeshadows, lemons, lemonade, the beach, sunflowers, rice, rollercoasters, Eid mornings, tom & jerry,
red — rose(duh), silk sheets, warm and hot, the sun, leaves that fall on autumn, lips, empty hallways when you walk alone at night, diamond rings, vogue magazines, billboard signs, marvel and DC comics, kitkat,
green — a parrot, the blue sky, a t'shirt and pants, the hills, mountains, empty roads, natural water, wanderlust, long trees, aeroplanes,
pink — a baby's first laugh, pink cheeks, macarons, flower crowns, gems, make up brushes, soft cotton candy, drawing, blushing, flirting, staring into someone's eyes, Polaroid pictures, perfumes
orange — well, oranges. and apartments, brochures, anime, same wallpapers, wattpad, fonts, YouTube makeup tutorials,
i think i will keep updating this.
first draft; 19 june. 5:33 pm.
