Deep Blue // BTS JIN

Chapter eleven: Blue Butterflies

Sora's POV

I.

Like.

You.

Three words that made my heart fall off a cliff. These three words made me feel happy but anxious at the same time. I was happy because Jin felt the same way as I did. We liked each other, there was no denying. But anxiety started to build in the pits of my stomach and worked its way up to my throat, making me unable to say something in return.

I just stared at him and tried to sort out my thoughts. I felt anxious, because I was scared to lose him. I was scared of getting attached. I was scared of loving him.

"I- I" I stuttered, the anxiousness still squeezing my throat tightly. I wanted to say something. I wanted to answer him. I wanted to yell. But anxiety won over me.

"It's okay." Jin's soothing voice made the demon release his grip around my throat.

"You don't need to say anything. I just wanted to tell you, without expecting an answer." His hand on my shoulder felt reassuring and I gathered the courage to tell him what I felt.

"I l-like you too." I whispered.

Jin's smile grew into a wide one and I saw his ears slightly turn red. "Thank you. I know it must be difficult to share your feelings. Especially since we don't really know a lot about each other."

"That's why we can get to know each other." I returned his smile, feeling my face light up like a lighthouse.

Jin nodded and continued to look at me. Again, it felt as his eyes were touching me. It didn't feel uncomfortable, but I was a bit embarrassed. His gaze always made me shudder with excitement.

"Sora."

"Yeah?" I breathed out. The way he said my name made me curl my toes. His voice, thicker and sweeter than honey, made me weak. I just wanted to give myself over and melt in his arms.

"Let's go on a date after your period." Jin said.

I looked up at his sparkling eyes. "Why after my period?"

"Our date will be a special date. I want to teach you how to swim." Jin smiled.

The demon was back again and wrapped its long, dirty claws around my throat. I tried to take a deep breath, but I was only allowed to take short breaths.

"Are you okay? Sora?" Jin's worried voice made the grip around my throat looser but the demon didn't let go this time.

"I-I'm scared of the water." I muttered, tears starting to form in my eyes.

"Can I know why?" Jin asked carefully. He knew it wasn't easy to talk about a fear.

"I had bad encounters with water." My tone was still a hushed one, I was scared the demons would hear me and try to lead me to the water.

"But, what if you fall in the pool again? What if I'm not there next time?" Jin asked.

He was right. We were living next to the sea and it was very possible that I could fall in a pool, lake or river. I tried not to think of falling in the sea. That was my worst nightmare.

"I'm more scared of the sea than the pool." I looked down.

"Look at me." Jin lifted my chin up so our eyes could meet. Mine were wet and it shocked me to see Jin's watery eyes.

"I promise I wouldn't let you go in the pool. We'll be together all the time. You just need the basics so you can save yourself if you fall in the water.