What are we? //5SOS

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Lucy POV

I can't do this.

I have to do this.

No. I can't.

Yes I can.

I'm standing at the edge of my window and facing down to the ground.

Not many people know but I am suicidal.

Have been suicidal for 2 years now. I actually attempted few months ago, but failed because my mom caught me.

I can't believe I'm having this feeling again. Ever since Luke came into my life, I thought my life would be steady already. But no.

I know myself way too well.

I take a deep breath and just kept standing there.

There's just something inside of me telling me to jump and end this suffering, but a part of me don't want to because, Luke.

Oh god Luke.

What will happen to Luke? Luke is more fragile than I was and everyone knew that.

With the whole Christina thing, and now me.

I can't do this. Especially not to him. It's not fair.

I'd made up my mind and slowly climb back inside to my room.

There's this huge grin in my face. Wow Luke actually save me.

Suddenly there's a knock on my door.

"Yes?" I yelled.

"There's someone here to see you, honey." My mom said.

I gasp. Is it Luke?

"Come in."

The door knob turned and it made me jump a little bit. Why am I so nervous?

"Hey...."

"Hi Luke."

"Can I come in?" He shyly stood at my door, hesitating to step in. It almost feel like he's ashamed.

"Yeah sure.."

I went and sit on my bed while he slowly walked in and taking my whole room in. He decided to sit on my computer chair infront of me.

We sat in silence for awhile before I decided to break it.

"I'm sorry Luke... It wasn't my intention to do that to you and I honestly didnt know what has came over me, but you have to know that he came on me, I didn't start it first. I don't know why you came over here, I thought you didn't wanna see me again-" I ramble on and on not noticing that Luke was just staring at me.

He does that a lot these days. He likes to stare. It's somewhat creepy because I don't know what's going on in his mind.

"Lucy wait-"

"No please Luke you need to understand that I didn't mean to do that you. You mean so much to me, and what I said about fuck off, please I was just emotional and the words came out before I could even process it"

Then it was silence again.

He smirked and looked up to the ceiling. Then back down to me. "Are you done?"

I took a deep breath. "Yes..."

"Lucy, listen. I was hurt when you said that we were over. But I was also happy that you actually thought that was a "us". I like you a lot Lucy, maybe more than you know. And I'm sorry that I yelled at you-"