What are we? //5SOS

IM SORRY

Lucy's POV

I waited in the room and even thought it was only for minutes, it felt like hours.

I felt my stomach moving in different places and it's making me uncomfortable.

Then I hear the door knob turned.

Shit

Shit

Shit

"I honestly don't understand wh-" I hear Luke's voice as he enters.

He stopped talking once he locked his eyes on me. I froze.

He dropped his bags and just stood there. He just kept staring at me. Which I was used to that.

I was about to say something to break the tension before he run towards me and smashed his lips against mine.

"I-"

"Miss-"

"You-"

"So-"

"Much-"

He said every word in between kisses. He kisses were sloppy and were hungry.

I pull away just to catch my breath and look directly at his eyes.

"I'm sorry."

He pulled away this time and looked at me. I kept going.

"I'm sorry I walked out on you. I'm sorry I left you like this. I wasn't sure what I was feeling when I saw that girl kissing you. I thought we were just having fun so I didn't really check my feelings towards you. But once I saw that girl hovering you like a dog, I felt jealous at the same time angry. Maybe that's why I walked away. And i know it's stupid b-but I'm just really sorry..."

He didn't say anything after that. Then I see tears running down his cheeks.

"You thought we were just fooling around..?" He mumbled.

"Well... We're not technically together you know?"

Something about that sentence made me realize this is not going to turn out well.

He scoffed. "Well then if this is what you think of us, then fine by me." He grabbed up his bags and open to door and walked out.

What the hell just happen?

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"I couldn't find him anywhere." Christina looking so worried. She's frowning her eyebrows while looking up and down the hotel.

"I'm sure he's fine..." Michael trying to calm her down.

"Lucy? How could you! I thought you guys were finally going to be back together but now look what you have done! We were suppose to be having a fucking good time over here but noooo we have to be bothered to find Luke!" Christina yelled at me.

I just sat there at the corridor in the hotel. I couldn't say anything.

"Are you even fucking listening to me goddamnit! "

She gave up and swing her arms up in the air. Looking frustrated as ever.

Ashton came and sat beside me. "Don't worry about Christina, she's easily pissed."

I looked at him and burst into tears. He let me lay down on his shoulders as he rubs circular motions on my back letting me cry out.

We sat there for hours before I finished crying.

"Feeling better?" He finally asked me.

"Why did you want to sit with me? I broke your bestfriend heart." I whisper.

"Because I don't like seeing a pretty girl crying." He smiled which made me held up a weak smile.

"So, you feeling better?"

"Yes thank you."

We both stood up and he gave me a big hug. "Don't you worry love, he'll be fine."

"Yeah but I don't think I will." I said as I turned my back and walked into my room shutting it.

I think it's time. I couldn't hold on to it anymore. I'm making everyone miserable. I'm making myself miserable. I think it's best if I just leave everyone.

I'm sorry Ashton.

I'm sorry Christina.

I'm sorry Calum.

I'm sorry Michael.

And I'm sorry Luke.

I took out a piece of paper and start writing my suicidal note.

Once I'd finish, I open my suitcase and took out 3 bottles of pills.

My eyes were bloodshot red due to hours of crying, I'm sitting on the bed while staring at the bottles.

I couldn't live on anymore.

"I'm sorry...." Those were my last words before I pop open the bottle.

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Don't hate meee! :(

I cried while writing this fyi

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