In third grade I went through this phase of thinking about how girls were so pretty and I couldn't do anything about it but stare in awe at girls and think "wow she's soooo pretty" and then I kinda forgot about it? No clue how bc 4th grade was the most aromatic year a person can have, seriously like I hated the thought of being with someone. Also my aunt died that year so I was super sad lmao. Then in 5 th grade everyone was calling me lesbian for hanging out with my (now trans ftm) friend and I was like "y'all need TO STOP". Then like I started getting feelings for girls and I was like "lesbian?? Bi?? What??" Bc I still had very minor crushes on guys. Then I figured out for sure that I TOTALLY had feelings for girls because I was watching Steven universe one day and Ruby and Sapphire were being super fluffy and I remember thinking "wait I want a healthy and cute relationship with a girl like that!". I came out to SuchTrashJPG first, she JUMPED ON ME. Near death experience but she was sooo supportive. I was extremely open as being bi-questioning. I even asked out a girl (no it didn't work out, anyways she potentially saved myself from a not great relationship so thanks for declining. I love you for that). Then for the next year(s) I was questioning a lot, I had my male crushes only to find out a few months into that crush I just desperately wanted him to be my friend. I dated a girl for 6 hours, it didn't work out but now that I think about it, she was great! Super cute now too. I cans out to my grandma, who said I was too young for it. Then again she said I was too young for dating, heterosexual or not. She eventually warmed up to me, but I'm pretty sure she has low key memory loss, but she still loves me. My mom sorta found out on her own, and I have no clue if my dad knows. Time skip a few years, and my mom is telling my aunt about this place Palm Springs, California, and how it has a lot of gay stuff for me. I remember like so;
"It has a lot of gay stuff for [BIRTHNAME]."
"Wait gay or game?"
"Gay."
My aunt is extremely accepting, and said how proud she is of me to carry around a pride flag, and she even encouraged me to be myself! Along with giving me LGBTQ+ artists to look up. I jokingly told my baby cousin months before my aunt found out,not like she had a reaction or anything, she's almost 2. But it's still good to tell someone, just to get it off my chest. Me and Paranoid_Panro started dating on February 25, or 24. We were doing this weird mall sleepover and half the time we had no clue what time/day it is. I remember writing "Boyf Riends" on our hands, I told the Starbucks barista my name was Rich (jokingly). She replied "aw I should've told them my name was Michael". The whole night we pretended to be in a relationship, even sharing a subway sandwich (if that's even a thing). Time skip to a few months later, we're texting. I had sent her a "send this to ur crush w/ no context" video. She replied sweetly. Several texts later I say "this relationship is barely platonic". She agreed, and a real relationship was born. All these "ily💓💖😍✨😘" 's were thrown around, and holy crap I was positive we were soulmates. We saw Love, Simon together and held hands through it, mostly because it emotionally hurt me, totally wasn't crying throughout it. Afterwards we are Cuban food and sorry for flinging steak at your friend babe. A few months pass and I'm not crazy about her friends, nor she is about mine but it's ok. A few more months pass and boom, we're on this trip to Orlando together. It started off great, we got a few "stop complaining so much" and arguments but all couples are like that. Also I found out she has no fear of roller coasters, and also thanks babe for helping me on those (actually not as scary) small excuses for thrill rides I am/was terrified of. Plus who can forget how you sound like you were dying when that random guy said "mr. Stark, I don't feel so good". It was adorable.
In conclusion, I'm gay and v tired. Bye
