random it shots/ prefrences

Arsonist's Lullaby. Jaeden Lieberher

when i was a child i heard voices.

i remember sitting in my closet as a little boy and holding my hands over y ears in attempt to silence the voices i didnt yet know no one else could hear.

some would sing and some would scream.

i remember when i was a little girl  i tried to scream over the voices in my head.

you soon find you have few choices.

the only way they would stop is if i listened to them.

i learned the voices died with me.

i soon found out that if i did what i think they might want they wouldnt be there at all.

when i was a child is sit for hours.

eventually they drove me to do worse things.

staring into open flame.

i burnt down my entire apartment building with evryone in it and laughed at their pleas for help.

something in it had a power, could barely tear my eyes away.

thats the moment i fully accepted my insanity.

all you have is your fire and the place you need to reach.

i started to hurt people. i only did it so they would hush.

dont you ever tame your demons.

I started to enjoy killing people after a while.

but always keep em' on a leash.

eventually i started to hurt myself instead.

when i was sixteen my senses fooled me.

I struggle as eight men attempt to drag me into a van to carry me to the asylum.

thought gasoline was on my clothes.

"I dont need your help!" I screech as they manage to get me in the vehicle.

I knew that something would always rule me.

the voices in my head begin to plot deaths for each one of  them as im hassled into the van.

i knew the sin was mine alone.

I finally accept that im insane on my ride to the asylum.

all you have is your fire.

they cant fix me, this is who I am.

and the place you need to reach.

I........I dont wanna be fixed.

dont you ever tame your demons.

I like being like this, I have for a while.

but always keep em' on a leash.

my insanity and violent tendencies can be useful at times.

when I was a man I thought it ended.

I happen to enjoy being totally heartless.

when I knew loves perfect ache.

but when she came along I found I still had a heart.

but my peace has always depended.

he makes me feel proud of being insane.

on all the ashes in my wake.

he drove me deeper into it. she loved me for who I was.

all you have is your fire.

I love the fire we have between us. I actually feel wanted for once in my life.

and the place you need to reach.

with Jaeden i've begun to feel almost....happy again.

dont you ever tame your demons.

I love him. I think I might....love her.

but always keep em' on a leash.

y/n is my forever whether she likes it or not.