I should've told you how I really feel a little in advance.
"hAAAAa gAAyy!" y/n laughs referencing her second vine in thirty seconds.
then I would've had some time to go and work it out, I think ive lost my chance.
her hair waves around as she shakes with laughter, I smile gently. I really need to talk to her.
for the last three years I just hid it so well hoping that you'd figure it out because I never could tell it straight to your face.
I dont even know if she likes girls or not! im afraid im going to ruin everything!
never have I ever woken up in a cold hard sweat from a dream wondering if you'd ever say goodbye if I didn't say it first.
what if she leaves and never talks to me again?
im done playing these games, I cant believe what im about to say.
"if I tell you a thing will you promise not to leave me?" I spill nervously.
I wont tell you goodbye with my love left behind, kiss me before I fucking lose my mind.
"of course, id never leave you Soph". "I think I love you". I stare at her in disbelief. the girl ive liked since I first met her thinks she loves me.
no, no more nights drinking to my loneliness up till' two a.m.
I wont have to be alone anymore!
no, no more waiting pacing round the bar hoping that you might walk in.
if she loves me everything's gonna be perfect in my life!
for the last three years I just hid it so well hoping that you'd figure it out because I never could tell it straight to your face.
"well?" Sophia asks with gleaming eyes. "Sophia I...." I have no idea how to tell her I love her back.
never have I ever woken up in a cold hard sweat from a dream wondering if you'd ever say goodbye if I didn't say it first.
I look up from the bed at Sophia and see a small tear rolling down her cheek "no" I coo."its fine" she says pushing my hand away "you can go if you want."
im done playing these games, I cant believe what im about to say.
"no" she says firmly "I dont know how to say what im feeling I- its complicated" she tries to explain. I knew she wouldn't love me back.
no, I wont tell you goodbye with my love left behind.
"Sophia I........" she starts.
kiss me before I fucking lose my mind.
I grab the collar of her hoodie and pull her over to kiss me. that'll get my point across.
oooo im done playing these games, I cant believe what im about to say.
I pull away from her and stare into her emerald eyes. "i love you" I say breathlessly. she cracks a small smile and sniffs.
cause I would rather die than feeling this inside.
" I would never leave you Soph. ever. no matter what" she assures me while gently brushing her fingers through my hair.
tricks played on my mind. no, I would rather die than just tell you goodbye.
"what if people dont accept u-" "shut up and kiss me ginger."
with my love left behind. kiss me before I fucking lose my mind.
"if people dont accept us, we cut them off" I say simply. "fuck them" she agrees happily.
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