random it shots/ prefrences

You. Eddie Kaspbrak

if you must wait, wait for them here in my arms as I shake.

I wrap my arms around her waist as she struggles to follow the small shadow of what appears to be her missing brother.

if you must weep, do it right here in my arms as I sleep.

she buries her face in my chest as her body is wracked with sobs. "shh it's gonna be ok y/n, it's gonna be ok" I whisper sadly.

if you must mourn my love, mourn with the moon and the stars up above.

"i m-miss  him Eddie" she whimpers wiping her eyes and looking into mine.

if you must mourn, dont do it alone.

"I know you do y/n" he sighs trying to hide the pain in his voice.

if you must leave, leave as though fire burns under your feet.

my walkie talkie beeps and I expect her sweet voice, but instead i'm greeted by Richie's.

if you must speak, speak every word as though it were unique.

the first thing I notice when I meet the rest of the losers in our specified place is that she isn't there. my heart starts racing."dont tell me-" I start.

if you must die sweetheart, die knowing your life was my lifes best part.

"it got her" Stan announces. "shes....done" Bev adds sadly "im sorry Eds". I jump onto my bike and bolt home to collapse on my bed cry. she was my world; she is my world.

if you must die remember your life.

I get out a small box from under my bed and open it up.all the pictures we took together fill the box to the top. I hold each one individually and relive the day it was took.

you are, you are all. you are, you are all.

I have to kill this clown. First it took Georgie, then her little brother and now......her too.

if you must fight, fight with yourself and your thoughts in the night.

ever since shes been gone everything in my life has been getting worse. my moms getting more overprotective and I feel like i'll always have a void in my heart.

if you must work, work to leave some part of you on this earth.

at least I still have our memories.....

if you must live, darling one

I had the best times of my life with her.

just live, just live, just live.

she taught me....how to live.