365 days of Darkness (pt. 2) // Z.M.

Day 252

March 31th, 2010

The day at school was the same as the one before, except from the fight between Mark and Elizabeth. Because he wasn't at school. She seemed proud of her every time she was looking at me. I don't know why, but she was disgusting me. The way she had talked to Mark the day before, I just couldn't take it. 

Anyway. When I got back home, Alexis by my side, I saw a car I knew in the driveway. It was Doniya's one. I couldn't helped but smiled. I had missed her and I was fucking worried about her. I couldn't go to see her as much as I wanted to. I was just hoping that Taylor wasn't with her. 

I opened the door and threw my bag on the floor and my girlfriend did the same. We walked into the living room, our fingers intertwined. I heard Doniya's voice from the kitchen, she was talking to my Mom before greeting us from there. 

- Hi Niya ! I shouted back before sitting on the couch.

Alexis laid on it, her head on my tight. I was running my fingers through her hair as we were watching TV. I don't know, but I liked those moments. When it was only silence, interrupted by a few laughs. We only got up when my Mom called us to eat. Waliyha came from upstairs and rushed into the kitchen to be the first one sitting at the table. I remember laughing at that. She was always hungry back then. 

As we ate what my Mom and Doniya had cook, the discussion was going on and on. It was nice. Like we were back at being a real family. It was like before. It wasn't as hurtful as when Safaa went away. It was just... Being happy.

I gave a few glances to Doniya during the dinner, I couldn't helped it. Yeah, she was laughing, talking, smiling, but I knew it was all fake. Damn, I'm a fucking bastard at making things look fake. I know how it looks like. Already knew back then. So, when it was time for the dishes, I grabbed Doniya's arm and took her upstairs to her old room. 

She gave me the look of "what the hell happened in your head" as I made her sat on the bed. I took place next to her and grabbed her hand.

- Is everything alright, Niya ?

- Yeah, why are you always asking me that ?

- I don't believe you. 

She looked up to the sky and I pointed to her neck. She was wearing a scarf but I could saw the bruises under it. 

- You're alright, yeah, of course. 

She realized what I had saw during all the dinner and she hid it better. But still, I knew it was there. I couldn't forget. 

- I know how it is to fake being happy, Doniya. I've been there way too often. I don't want anyone I love go down that road. So, whatever it is, you can tell me, alright ?

She looked down to her feet, taking her hand back and playing with her fingers. I really thought she would tell me that day. Really. But, when she looked up, I knew I was wrong. When our eyes met, I knew she would never tell me.

- I'm not like you. I'm happy Zayn. Stop worrying about me. I'm alright.

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Who believes Doniya ? Not me.

Anywayyyyy ! Hi everyone, I'm back ! How are you all doing ? For myself, I'm super fucking good ! My boyfriend is sleeping right next to me and I just lived one of the best weeks of my life. Seriously... Always take the time to get away from your life, it's incredible what it can do. 

Love always xx