Loving alexis

We've been reading the book 'Romeo and Juliet' for the past month, and I'm about to throw up right now.

Romance novels are my least favorite. I hate them. Everyone thinks or atleast hopes, that once in their life, they'll finally get a happy ending. Well happy endings don't happen to everyone! Sorry to rock your boat, but I'm right. I hate watching or hearing about romance movies. They're all full of sh!t. We all know it. None of that crap happens in real life, it's all just a fantasy that you're willing to have.

As you can tell, I'm not a big fan of love.

I am not a big fan of love because when I grew up, I knew what it was like to not be loved, or to not be able to love someone. I had no one.

I grew up in so many foster homes, I stop counting because it's useless. It took those people years to track down my biological mother. I always thought of the magical moment that would come when she finally showed up and took me home.

That magical moment never happened. She wasn't very happy taking in her daughter, that she gave up at birth. My mother was a very successful woman, she had 3 sons, but no husband.

One day, I asked her about not having a husband, and she said, and I quote, "I don't need a man to be successful, and to live life."

Those words have been stuck inside my head for the past years, ever since I asked that on the drive to my new home.

I was about 9 at the time. I needed a mother, I needed love.

But that love never came to me. I always knew that deep down inside that she did have some love for me, but she never really cared to show it. I was saved by the three boys that welcomed me with love. I was never saved by her.

I am now 17. One day, I was running around the house and I ran into her office hiding from Jason, because he was pissed off that I walked in on him and some brunette chick. I hid under the desk, and when I heard his angry footsteps pass the door, I sat up.

I noticed an open drawer in her desk, there was a file with a lot of papers in it, and I chose to take a peek at them.

When I opened the file to find my brothers' and my files:

Updated: September 1st, 2013.

Hayward kids:

Jason Hayward: Eldest child, 18, senior at Elton High school. Sports- Football, Basketball, Baseball, Hockey, and Soccer.

Kyle Hayward: Second Oldest, 17, junior at Elton High school. Sports- Basketball, Hockey, and Baseball.

Alexis Hayward: Third oldest child, 17, junior at Elton High School. Sports- Soccer, Basketball, Softball, and Lacrosse.

Tyler Hayward: Youngest child, 14, 9th grader at Elton Middle School. Sports- Football, Basketball, Hockey, and Soccer.

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Yes, I played Lacrosse. It's actually very fun, it helps if you have very bad anger issues. Haha

If you're wondering, yes. Jason, Kyle, and Tyler, are all my biological brothers. Thank the lord.

Right now, those three, and my best friends Kayla and Riley are the only ones keeping me sane. I've almost hit my mother once she turned her back on me when we fought, but Jason would always hold me back, because if I did hit her, I'd be out on the curb.

Thankfully, my mom and I don't fight as much as we used to.

So anyways, this is way out of order, I don't get it. I started out tell you how I hate romance novels, to telling you about myself. I get so off topic a lot, it's not even that funny.
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