wait. I have a twin?

what is this feeling in my stomach?

It wasn't that much of a long shot for Cas to convince Kayla to go back to sleep, she was worn out, from the dream, her hunter life, everything. Tangled around the angels body, Kayla snuggled more into Castiels chest if that was even possible. 

*Castiels P.O.V*

What is going on with me?...how can a human make me feel this way?... I don't know what this feeling is but I'm confused as to the question if it's good or not. It feels good, though ...the way she hugs me every time I see her...the way her adorable hazel eyes speaks thousands of words with just one look...those hazel that seen every possible thing and she still keeps on going and surviving... The way she talks...her soft mature voice that makes me feel like I want to listen to it more...  I am so confused...what is this?..Am I doing it right? Am I giving her what she wants?... Am I what she wants?  

I gently untangle her off of me before getting off of her bed...I look down at her. she's so beautiful...she's like... an angel...that's ironic I know but... wow... She looks so peaceful. I bent down and very slowly and gingerly gave her a soft kiss on her forehead before stroking her temple with my thumb holding a keen smile on my face. I was about to leave but then I heard the door open slowly... "Kitty?" I heard her special nickname from Dean..I have to think of a nickname for her..cause seems like everyone has one for her.  Kayla still hadn't moved...she was  deep in sleep. I lifted my finger up to my lips as a "sshh" sign for Dean. "She's still sleeping" I whisper. "Can I talk to you for a bit?" I added on. Dean looked over at Kayla and softly smiled at her sleeping figure before turning to me "sure bud. Come on" he direct me to the door and walked out of her room. 

Keeping  the quiet up to the kitchen, Dean took out something from like a cabinet of some sort where stuff is cold. "want a beer?" Dean asked "uuuhh....I don't know what that is" "it's a drink" I see him close his eyes as though he's giving up. "Oh. No. us angels...we don't drink" "right." He took out a glass bottle which said "Corona" and took his first swing at it. "so..what did  you want to talk to me about?" "Well...I don't know where to begin um... Every time I see your sister..." "Dude! I'm not the person you have to talk to about that" Dean said a bit taken aback giving me a weird look "Why not?" I was really confused "I'm her brother...it's kind of awkward." "Oh... I...but...You're human...I need human answers...I can't talk to my brothers" I said to him giving him one of my puppy looks which always worked on Kayla. Dean sighed "fine...go ahead" Dean gave me another shot?... Great! "thank you! so...what I was gonna say was that..Every time I meet your sister, I feel...weird" "what kind of weird?" His judging and glare look staring right at me "um..Like... I...I feel my stomach twisting and turning... I feel warm." "you got the hots for my baby sister?" "What?! what is that?!" "it's when you want to have sex with someone!" "I don't know what that is exactly but I know the concept and no!! it isn't that Dean!!" I was getting really defensive...it's really nice that Dean and Sam are being protective over Kayla but now it's annoying me...she can't be there's forever! "Dean!! you gotta hear me out!!!" "Cas!! How can we trust you around our sister?" "what do  you mean by that?" "What do I mean?..wh... you're an angel!! you're not around all the time! You won't be here all the time!! You will not be here all the time! And Kayla needs constant looking out for!! and no!! not from heaven!! she needs physical attention. That's why me and Sam are raising her ourselves!" I was shocked a bit but...I couldn't believe what he just said "I can't believe you think so little of me" I only said to him. 

"Come on Cas!!! Tell me one thing about her that me and Sam does not know!" Dean told me...and to be honest...this is when I realised that I actually have something valuable in me that's called a heart "what I know...you can't know...if I tell you you will just think that I made it up" Dean gave me an intense look on his face "try me" he gnarled into my face...although he was taller than me I was not effected by it. I glared at him "You don't even know how much she loves you and Sam... you 2 are her first priorities... I caught her having a nightmare just now...and what do you think happened in the nightmare?...you died!!! her loosing you!! her worst fear ever!! I may not know human interactions...but I do know human fear... I can sense it...for instance...you fear that you're gonna be alone...Sam... fears that he's going to loose everyone he loves...Kayla... she just fears that she will disappoint you and you and Sam will just abandon her...She fears that..one day...you and Sam will leave her...or just die or just.... do something to her because she did one mistake... She lives in fear and regret every day for that. She's in deep deep fear that she's thinking that one day she'll just blow it and she'll loose you and her twin.... so don't tell me that I'm not worth her time.... Yes...I'm an angel, but trust me, I will always be there when she calls. Always. I will be here. And I don't need someone like you telling what I'm going to do with the woman I..." I stopped there...I kept rambling on and now look where it's lead to... I frowned and looked down leaving a rather speechless over protective brother.... "I..I'm sorry... um...I...I probably should've stopped." I looked up at the hunter who was awe struck.. "Cas" was the only  thing he said to me "I'm sorry" I said to him "no! don't apologise. I uh...Cas...I think...that feeling you feel in your stomach...I think...now correct me if I'm wrong... I think it's love...that emotion..those things you said to me...I think me and Sam are wrong about you." now it was my turn to be speechless. "Cas... I think you have to talk to my sister." "But...sh..she still feels guilt and remorse for her husband... I can't do this to her." "Cas...her husband died  3 and half years ago. I think...I think you should at least talk to her" I looked at him and gulped before taking glance off of him nodding "Alright."

~next morning~

*Readers P.O.V*

Kayla softly sniffed in the morning smell and breathed inwardly from her throat stretching and sitting up. Sliding off her bed, she walked into her bathroom and brushed her teeth rinsing off the paste and spitting it out before washing her face and pulling her hair up in a pony tail. Walking down towards the kitchen she was greeted by Sam "morning bunny" "morning Sammy bear" he walked with her to the kitchen with a swung arm around her shoulders and a soft chaste kiss on her head and being greeted at the kitchen with Dean and Cas "Hey kitty" his voice was more gentle than normal. Kayla narrowed her eyes "morning puppy" she said in an unease tone in her voice but still gave him her usual morning kiss on his cheek. He gently grabbed her by her hand and pulled her into his chest and just closing his eyes and remembering what Cas told him.. 

 *Deans P.O.V*

How can she ever think that me and Sam is going to leave her over a mistake?...why?... She over thinks and beats herself too hard for being in this hunters life. I love her way too much to even think of leaving her. Still holding her in my arms, I gently pressed another kiss on her head before rubbing her back and letting go of her "puppy, you ok?" she asked. She was so innocent with Sams puppy eyes..why did she had to look like him so much?! "Nothing kitty! don't worry about it. I think Cas has something to tell you. Sammy, wanna help me find a case?" "uuuh sure!" Sam accepted my offer and followed me to the library. 

*Kayla's P.O.V*

what the hell is going on? I shook my head before turning to Castiel and smiled at him "what is it cas?" "Kayla, there's something you need to know. and I hope that you don't find it awkward...we developed a good thing between us and I don't want it to just stop." I felt my brow etch into a worried frown "Cas. What's going on?" I felt my anxiety rise. "Kayla...Yesterday I had a little talk with Dean...and turns out..I..I uhh" I was getting more anxious and nervous by the minute... "cas..please..what's up?" "I'm trying to tell you but..It's really hard to do so" "Alright...How about I give you choices and you just tell me yes or no?" I said trying to help out. "Ok. That seems easier" "Alright. Um... you're going back to heaven?" I started "no" "ok? uuhh... you feel sick?" "Angels don't get sick" "Oh..sorry umm. I don't know maybe...something is going to happen to me?" "What?!?! no!!! dad no!!! what did I promise yesterday?" "right! sorry! uumm..I don't know cas. I might be going over the limb here but I don't think that you Love me do you?" I looked at him and I saw him staring into my eyes..god...those beautiful gorgeous baby blue eyes that kept on gazing on me... damn..he's so adorable and sexy! "cas?" I say again getting my thoughts aside "Kayla...I actually do" My eyes widened "wait...what?!" "I love you Kayla." I see him walking up to me and standing right in front of me only few centimetres away...his breath hitting my face feeling like a warm breeze sending shivering waves up my spine. "oh..wow.. um...how?" "I... I felt it the second I laid eyes on you" my heart did a flip "oh.. wow.. heh..thanks um... I...I don't know what to Say Cas." "you don't have to say anything" I felt his thumb and ring finger cupping my chin gently pulling it up to his and pressing a soft kiss onto my lips and keeping going for a bit longer. wow...this is so heavenly, no wonder he's an angel. He's so beautiful in every mysterious ways and I would do anything to keep this angel close to me no matter what.