yeah so I fell in love with my guy best friend and let me say its not the first time but that's for the next chapter but anyways I fell in love with my guy friend he called me the earth and said I was important and that he would never leave me and I called him my sun and moon cuz I felt like he brightened up my life and my day at any time and said if he ever needed anything to come tell me but I don't think that will ever happen cuz I messed up I told him I loved him twice in the form of poems and the first one was plain and simple and was practically screaming LOVE but he didn't understand it or pushed it aside hoping I wouldn't say anything about it and the second time I told him I told him I said I would need a break from him to get over him so I don't mess up our friendship so a week later my mom told me to talk to him because all we'd ever do is talk(and take in the view) so when I texted him he didn't answer so I did it a few times last month in July and still got no answer, but when I called it said that his number was out of service or something so I was like ok so he most likely blocked me or his phone doesn't work and I kept telling myself his phone doesn't work but i know he blocked me because he would never let something happen to his phone he wouldn't really let people touch it and I kept telling myself his phone broke but I know its not true he hates me and its all my fault and he was the best thing to probably ever happen in my life and I have been broken for the past month with threats, stress and a broken heart from a guy I just met this school year and I hope he is happy and has listened to the request I gave him before he called me his earth and forgot about me. I hope he is not in his bed or the shower or home alone crying his eyes out and wishing he could change what he said and did like I am. even though I say I hate him and I'm over him and that if I ever saw him I would tell him to go fuck himself but in all honesty I just want to hug him tell him im sorry and that I hope he is having the best summer he could ever have.
