i have like from my memory i have liked about 5 guys and 2 girls and those people were around my age or 5 years older and yes i have liked adults and stuff every girl and boy has but these guys put me through pain except for the first guy.
so the first guy was a kindergraden(boyfriend)crush also sorry for the referances anywho he was a crush and my bff later on in first grade i fell in love with this "bad boy" and we had and off again on again relationship since i said no to fake marriage in the first grade and in the fifth grade he said i was mean and we stopped dating.the guy i like in sixth grade was my very own bff since kindergraden or so maybe even before that but i fell in love with him from 6th-7th grade and realised that i only loved the feeling of his attention and not really him cuz in reality he was kind of an ass. he was a leader and everyone even me followed him and when i realised that i hated myself and was mad at him but i would never have let him know that, i figured out he liked my bff and i was upset but he and hr would never know unless they saw this book. ah in 8th grade i fell in love with my best friends crush, i fell in love by getting to know him bit by bit he and me were good friends but i knew i was going to be the angelica to this alexander(this isnt the only time) so just like angelica i told him i liked him but unlike angelica i told him to never talk to me again....i did see him in may for this parade in my town he was cool and chill and we talked like nothing happened i was thankful and he wasnt hte only person i liked in 8th grade cuz at the end of 8th grade i realised after a confession i was in love with the girl from the chapter "the girl i like.....d.....". wow now we are in 9th grade and this is where i was angelica again for the same girl who is literally like Eliza when she fell in love with her dickheaded boyfriend (mentioned him in last chap) but before i knew he was an ass i fell in love with him but this was different yet the same from the guy in 8th grade cuz this guy had a twin who i liked at first and when my friend (the one who is like eliza) said she liked him i gave up on liking him but then 2-3 weeks later the other twin showed up(dickhead McGee) i fell in love with him then before i could tell her she said she was in love with him also and i just broke i felt hurt but i didn't say anything to her about how I felt because it hurt too much I mean like I just fell in love with one twin and got over him because she loved him then when the next one comes and I like him she tells me she likes him i gave up on liking him even though he had a place in my heart but just like Beyoncé sang in best thing i never had i knew it was true cuz he was a nice guy before i saw the real him and im happy i stopped liking him cuz he is an ass who probably wants my fragile broken bff for sex and i will not let that happen anywhore the last guy i liked or well still like is the guy from the chapter"the guy i like.......d....?" and he deserves the world and i wish him the best. so now the summer before 10th grade and here i am telling stories and wishing for a time muchine to fix what i had done and not to change the horrible thing that makes me feel like it going to get me soon but to change what i did to the last guy i talked about you know the one that deserves the world yeah i wish he had never met me sometimes so he didnt have to suffer listening to me, i mean like i am beyond pissed at him for sayin i didnt have depression(just a touchy subject because others have pushed me away when i said i felt suicidal) when he knew damn well i had depression, i hope he isnt suffering like i am i am hoping for the best for all these people except for the dickhead i hope he suffers for a while.
