last week after watching a certain episode of game theorist i had cried so much that i couldn't breath. the episode was about the editor Ronnie and i have never knew who Ronnie was but i had heard of how great of a person he was and how strong he was. that was a rough day for me when i had watched it. i was upset. when i saw that video with MatPat crying and hearing that someone who was/is a big part of his life i cried because i saw that if i committed suicide what it would eel like for others. so i vowed to not commit suicide or think of it and if i did i would tell someone. life is hard ik it is and i cant stop myself from having even the slightest destructive thought but it happens and i just wanted everyone to know that i am here for u. u can dm me or whatever and i will help u. there are others that can help u. i may be suffering and having my own problems but i put others before me. i will put others who need more help than me at certain times to keep them alive. my bff was so sad when she thought her bf only wated her for sex. she sent me a kermit hanging himself meme and it scared me so bad i was crying i had told her she is worth so much more than she thinks and that she shouldnt do it because it will only pass the pain to someone else. she told me i fill a bigger hole in her heart than her bf.i was humgry and hardly ate that day and yet i didnt move or leave my phone until she told me she was ok. i would never leave anyone. no u are not a bother if u want to talk. i am here for u no matter what time or day. even if i post something sad dont hesitate to dm me and tell me whats wrong if u feel like ending it tell me plz.
http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html
sorry if u cant click on it or copy and paste it but it is a website that tells you what number to call worldwide it has the numbers and times for the lifelines and has websites or emails.
so please if you need help tell someone and dont forget that even if i dont know u I love you!!!
