The Social Gods | On Hold

6

The second I walk up to Shawn's front door he swings it open.

"What's wrong?" I say as I take in his appearance.

Shawn's eyes are puffy, he has on grey sweatpants and a navy blue shirt. He looks so sad.

Fuck this better not be my fault.

I look up to his eyes but he's eyes are on the floor.

"I don't really want to talk about it, but can you just..." he trails off.

I already know he wants me to stay the night. Honestly even if he didn't ask I would've. There is no way in hell I would leave my best friend while he's upset.

"Why wouldn't I stay?" I say in a "duh" tone.

He pulls his head up high enough to look me in the eye.

"I don't know you can really distance yourself from us...me." What the fuck? When the hell do I distance myself? And who the hell is us? If he means the other guys he must be crazy. They NEVER leave my house. They even go on vacation with me most times.

Breath Nicole. Don't get angry. This isn't about you. Just count to three.

One.

Two.

Three.

Exhale.

"I'm sorry" is all I say as I rub his bicep. Damn. He's been working out. Without another word Shawn grabs my hand and pulls me inside. He closes the door, locking it, before he leads me upstairs to his room.

His room isn't as messy as mine but he does have clothes on the floor. But it's nothing I haven't seen in his room before.

"Sorry about the mess." He says as a whisper.

I want to know what's going on but I don't want to push him into telling me. Why doesn't he feel comfortable telling me? He usually is an open book, why is he only letting me peak at the pages now?

I force a laugh, it's actually quiet convincing if I hadn't been the one laughing I might've thought it was real. "Shawn it's nothing I haven't seen in here before." He drops my hand then turns around slightly to give me a weak smile. He takes a seat on his bed so I head to his desk chair. I spin around in the chair once. When I stop he's staring at me.

Do I have food on my face? Shit.

"Why are you sitting over there?" Oh thank God. Even though it's just Shawn I'm with that would have been so embarrassing.

I shrug as a response because I honestly don't know why I sat over here. He walks over to me and pulls the chair over to the bed. He gestures for me to get off the chair but I shake my head.

With an eye roll and a chuckle Shawn sits back on the bed.

"I'm not going to try and have sex with you if you sit on the bed with me." He says giving me a smirk.

"Oh I know. If you really wanted to have sex with me you would try to even if I was sitting in this chair." I say pulling my legs into criss-cross applesauce style. He uses the bottom of the chair to pull me closer to him. "Damn right I would."

Shawn is one of the sweetest boys I know but he is such a sex monkey I swear. One day the rest of the world is going to see it. Honestly, I don't see how they don't see it now. He has amazing abs, he sings, and he plays guitar. You know he is getting laid.

I can't help but giggle at my thoughts. I shake my head dismissing the thoughts.

"So what do you wanna' do?" I ask after a few moments of silence.