This is a Book I Guess#5

Fine...

I'll shut the fuck up and stay....  I'm getting tired of the spam. 
I'm too tired of the people who leave me like trash.
Which I am...
But still...
I just lost a ton of my best friends, and now I'm stuck with only like 3 people who actually care,  the others didn't give a shit about me,  just the fucking popularity. 
And now the one I love is in depression? Because of what I'm doing? Well fuck that! I ain't letting that happen!
You have no idea how pissed off I am at my used to be friends. 
I thought they cared,  but no,  I'm a complete fucking stranger to them. 
I don't see why the rest care because of the stupid ass shit that I have to go through! I'm in depression? Here's what it sounds like when my friends find out, "Well fuck that you stupid asshole,  not dealing with your shit!" well I'm sorry,  am I gonna have to keep all of my things in?
This whole depression is basically by me being unlucky,  I'm a disease,  and that no one seems to fucking care. 
"That's all? You're pathetic!" I KNOW,  secondly,  YOU DON'T FUCKING DESERVE TO HAVE FRIENDS IF YOU EVEN THINK ABOUT THAT!
Most people thought I was just either sad or happy-go-lucky,  look at how pissed I am! Do you ever see me this fucking mad?!
I'm just tired of the betrayals and pain that I've been going through.
But none of you can understand that,  now can you?...