This is a Book I Guess#5

Announcement [PLEASE READ]

This was announced by my parents a few days ago... I'm going to, yet again, another psychologist... I didn't wanna talk about it, but I am...I have only been on Sketch and Sing because I don't really need to express myself. I'm going to a doctor named, Dr. Parks. I felt like I could say that because I hear about a lot of Dr. Parker(s) and Parks. I honestly don't know what gender but it doesn't matter. It makes me more upset to go to one of these, I haven't been in one for over a year now. Because as the freak I am, I can't be fixed. It works like glass... If it breaks, it's never gonna be fixed. And the only way to fix it, is to replace it. Which would be a fake me.

If you don't believe me, I would probably do the same because the depressed issues I complain about 24/7, are insane.  I complain about it too much. Just to the point where it sounds like I want attention. So much for honest, eh?

But I am going to a psychologist.... For the thousandth time... And, if it doesn't work, I'm just gonna be p*ssed. My mom thought about it again after she saw my notebook (drawing book) and what I wrote in it. Which wasn't like an essay, but it was long. I was just angry because of my brother and what he said, so I wrote down what would make me feel better which my mom did not enjoy, at all. When she read a couple, she looked at me as if I were crazy. Not murderous. She just had to comment... And the writing wasn't about them or anything, it's pretty obvious what I wrote down.

Insults towards me.

Which I still agree to myself that those are facts...

Anyway, my dad and mom discussed this. They kind of just left me out of the conversation and I was at A&W when they did this so they gave me some money to play games, which I played Guitar Hero because I love it. I thought that'd they give me just the pills.

But now I'm getting BOTH. And this is the year my mom goes to college, and go to a less-paid job. I really wish I hadn't done anything. I wanted my mom to think I was just really angry for the other stuff. But this was just showing in plain sight. It's not fun, and not to mention, incredibly awkward.... Also, on insta, I got a follow by someone who is a psychologist, which I'm wondering if they were Dr. Parks or something. What do I know?

Anyway, this is getting incredibly long, bye guys, I don't know when I'll be back on. I might be able to save my nights/midnights though. If you wanna talk, which I would see as a bad idea... But, bye...