Save Me.

dad.

I arrive to the hotel to see the boys putting the bags into the back of the van. I wheel my bag over to them and they put it in the van.
"Where's Jah?" I ask one of the boys and they point towards the hotel entrance. I quickly thank him and make my way inside.
I notice him and Ski at the front desk. His dreads now up into a cute updo. I walk over and place my hand on his shoulder, making him turn to look at me. He smiles and wraps his arm around my waist, pulling me closer to him.

"Ready to go?" He asks backing me away from the front desk.

"Before we go I need you to come with me somewhere."

"Where now?" He said dramatically sighing.
"Its important I promise"
Leading him outside and towards one of rhe empty cabs.

"Where yall goin'?!" Ski yells out, chasing after us.

"None of your business, deadbeat" I snapped, stopping in my tracks not bothering to turn and look at him. He just sighs.

"We just goin' somewhere right quick" Jah quickly explains.

"Aight just be back by 3" Jahseh nods and we continue walking to the nearest cab.

"You gotta stop that" he says once we've gotten into the cab.

"Stop what?"
He smacks his teeth "You know what."

I let out a chuckle then turned towards the driver and said the address,
"Greenwood cemetery please"

"Why are we here?" He asked as we passed many graves. I know where im going,just a little further.
"You'll see" I grabbed his hand and held onto it tightly as we make our way through the graves.

28..29..30 steps from the entrance.

I stopped and turned facing a grave.
"Who's this?"

James Temor
1973-2014
Loving father and son
"Fear does not stop death, it stops life"

"It's my dad"

"Oh...um" he cleared his throat.
"Im sorry that I just dumped this infront of you but I really needed to see him before we left an-and Im just sorry" I tried swallowing the lump in my throat to hold back the tears.

He let go of my hand and wrapped his arm around my shoulder. "There nothing to be sorry about, come on" we both kneeled down and sat next to eachother infront of his grave. We sat in silence for a couple of minutes then he finally spoke up.
"Do you know what happened to your mom, like where she went?"
I shook my head, " I dont want to know, for all I care I hope shes dead" I bluntly say picking at the grass under my feet.
"Before I moved to Florida, I used to sit here and just ramble on and on about how much I missed him."
"Talk to him then" I glanced up at him then to the grave.

"Uh, hi dad...it's been awhile huh?" I clear my throat. "Remember last time I was here? I told you about Derrick...it didn't really work out between us. H-He...um you probably know what he did. If you were still here you would have protected me but your not and that's okay...cause I have Jahseh to protect me" A small smile cracks on my face as Jah squeezes my arm and rubs my arm soothingly. "Jah can you give me a minute, just wait for me by the entrance?" I look up and him with pleading eyes. "You sure?" I just nod, looking back down at the grass. He kisses my hand then my head, gets up and walks back to the entrance. I look up at the grave and I break. Tears start streaming down my face.
"You remember the question I asked last time?" I paused wiping the tears from my face. "I still don't understand why you did it...was my love just not enough for you to stay?" I sniffed, standing up. I touched the stone to his grave, "Bye daddy, love you"

I walk towards Jah with my hands stuffed in my pockets looking down at my shoes. I stop in front of Jahseh and he grabs my chin, lifting my face up to face his, "You okay?" I smile and nod. "Yeah I'm good" he engulfs me in a long hug. A car pulls up beside us and pull apart then get inside.
On the way back to the hotel, i look up to him to see him already staring down at me.
"Thank you" I croaked, my throat feeling tight. "Why are you thanking me?"

"For being there for me when I need it the most"

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