I Love You Ms. J!

Chapter 9: Weird Moment

           

"Did you see them, they were just making out."

"Yeah, they didn't care if it was in public."

"I wish I had a boyfriend like that."

"Ew, gross."

Bella and I shot passed the gossiping girls, pretending not to hear them. To be honest I can't believe we just did that right there in the open as well. As we left school grounds I realized that we had no plan, well not a great one.

We just left, but there was no destination. And what exactly did Bella mean by alone. Did she just want to be somewhere private or did she mean something more? I'm not sure if I could handle something like that right now.

"S-So, where did you want to go?" I asked her. I was starting to second guess myself, scared of the path I was going on.

Bella was looking down at her feet again. I think she was hoping I'd take the lead in this. But to be honest I was scared out of my mind. She needed to be the boy now.

"We can go to my place."

Her place?! I was glad she was looking away because I must have looked like a frightened puppy. She led the way, explaining in a nervous ramble that she lived alone in an apartment building not too far from the university. Other students lived in the other buildings, as it was so close, but she didn't know any of them. I pretended to be interested, anything to keep my mind off of whatever dirty thoughts that were lingering in the back of my head.

We arrived at her apartment. It was a small one room place one. I really felt like I was stepping in a different world now.

"I'm sorry Jessica, it's not much."

"This is great. My parents live nearby so I still live at home."

"Oh?" Bella was taking off her shoes and shutting the door.

Somehow the sound of it shutting echoed in my mind. I looked around the room and saw her sleeping futon still out, next to a heated table.

Images of Bella and myself on that futon popped in my head and I felt my heart skip a beat. I hoped she didn't want to go that far.

"I forgot that I left it like this. It's a mess." Bella sounded embarrassed, her eyes on the futon.

"Don't worry about it, it's not we planned this." I rubbed the back of my neck.

Bella sat down underneath the heated table, so I followed her example and sat down next to her. Silence. I could hear both of our hearts beating.

"This seemed like such a good idea in my head." Bella finally said. "But now I'm completely terrified."

"You too?" I blurted out.

She looked at me and all at once we both started laughing. We worked ourselves up to this state on our own. Maybe this wouldn't be so bad after all.

"I got an idea. I want to see what you look like as a girl." Bella once again spoke an idea that came out of nowhere.

"Huh?"

"We're both around the same size, maybe something of mine will fit you?"

"Oh. Uh, well if you want." I felt slightly bashful about the prospect. Wearing my brother's clothes had become sort of a shield.

Bella got up and rummaged through her things then produced an outfit. Like most things about Bella, it was really cute and stylish. It would be a waste on me. But she looked so excited that I couldn't say no.