I Love You Ms. J!

Chapter 3: Through her Eyes

           

"You told her yes?"

My little brother, Ken, was shocked when I told him. I can't blame him, I'm shocked too. I said I would go on a date with a girl. Me! What was I thinking? I could still see Bella's eyes burned into my mind. How brave it must have been for her do to that.

"It's just one date. I'll go out with her, then tell her the truth afterwards." I told him. "I figured that I could at least give her that..."

"This is both weird and funny at the same time."

"It's not funny." I told him. I wasn't in the mood for this sort of thing. "A girl's heart is..."

But what was I saying? By not telling her I could still hurt her. But by saying no... after looking into those eyes... I'm was so confused.

"So what are you going show up as? A boy or a girl?" Ken asked.

It was a fair question. If I dressed like a girl, then everything would be out in the open already. But I did promise her Bella one date. Would it be kinder to let Bella have that date or tell her straight away?

"I guess I shouldn't lie to her." I finally decided.

"My sister, the heartbreaker." Ken teased.

"Shut up!"

The day of the date I was actually nervous. When I looked in my closet I realized that I had been dressing like my brother for so long I didn't have that many girly clothes anymore. The ones I had were too small, and I couldn't show up in my high school uniform. So I had looked at the clothes I had, the ones I didn't borrow from my brother. They were plain looking, cut for a girl, but still looked way to boyish.

Groaning I gave up. My brother had nicer things, and it would really be horrible if I showed up dressed like a slob. I'd just have to tell her outright. When I went to borrow some of his clothes, Ken teased me some more.

"At least I got a date on a Saturday." I retorted. That shut him up.

I showed up at arranged meeting place. I really didn't have a plan for a date, but I thought that I'd take her to something fun and typical... one I'd like to go on with a boy if I had a chance. But instead of telling her at the end of the date, I'd tell her up front but still treat her to lunch and a movie. That sounded reasonable.

Somehow I got there early. This was starting to look like a shojo manga scenario. Soon Bella would arrive and say "Did I keep you waiting for long." and I would go "No, I only just arrived." The thought of it made my blush. How corny is that? But when Bella arrived moments later she greet me with a giggle.

"I thought I'd be the early one." Bella told me. "Looks like you beat me here."

"Oh. Uh, yeah sorry about that?" I stammered, not sure what to say.

She looked really nice. Before she was dressed up for school, but today she was dressed up for a date. I wished I looked like her. She's so pretty.

"I-is there something wrong?"

"Huh?"

"Well... you're kind of staring at me?"

"Am I? Sorry, it's just you're so beautiful."

Why did I say that? It's okay for a girl to say that to another girl, but a boy? What in the world was I thinking?

"D-Did I dress up too much?" Bella's face was burning red.

"No! No... sorry, I just... I shouldn't be allowed to speak in public is all." I felt weird.

"I don't know..." Bella smiled a small smile. "You're kind of cute when you're nervous."

"I'm cute?"

Then I remembered. I was supposed to of told her I'm a girl by now. I'm only making the situation worse. And after I went and said she's beautiful. She'll think I'm some sort of pervert or something.

"Bella, I should tell you something..."

"Huh?"

"You saved my life and all so-"

My mind went blank.

"Oh, I just realized I keep calling you  Jessica, and I never asked you if that's okay."

"Yeah, I guess so." I said then immediately screamed internally. I'm getting nowhere at all. I should have just told her flat out.

"." Bella smiled.

I breathed in determined to get the information out. "Bella, I'm not really a-"

"Oh how rude of me." Bella interrupted. "Please don't think I'm saying this as an afterthought but... I think you look nice as well."

"Uh, not really." I rubbed the back of my neck. I'm out of my league here.

She looked slightly put back. "You must have gotten picked on a lot in High School, huh? You can't take a compliment so well."

"I wasn't really picked on that much, more like looked over."

"I understand. I was the same. I think I told you before I went to an all-girl school. Only the really pretty girls stood out."

This was getting off topic. But before I could return to the not-a-guy situation, Bella had decided the date had officially began.

"Shall we go?"