The next few days passed like nothing had happened. Zach became extra cheesy and sweeter, if it was even possible. I didn't still confess to Zach about my feelings.
All of a sudden, after 10 days since we started talking, something changed between us. Zach wasn't the Zach I knew anymore. He was somehow different. Every day he would say, 'Alex, just promise me you won't fall in love with me'. I said that I won't ever fall in love, not with him or anyone as a matter of fact. We didn't chat for hours anymore.
For 4 days, Zach didn't talk to me, nor did he reply to my texts. I was scared. Did something happen to him? I was worried sick. I just hoped he was fine. Those days I couldn't sleep or study. It was like a part of me was dead. I checked my mobile every five minutes, hoping that Zach just texted me once. I felt like a zombie.
A part of me felt broken. I never missed anyone so badly that I would feel lost without them. I read all of his texts repeatedly whenever I missed him too much. I looked at his picture which he sent me earlier every now and then. Trust me; he was like a Greek god.
Zach had regular brown eyes and dark brown hair, but never in my entire life did I see a man more beautiful. Yes. Beautiful. And his tough, athletic physique just made him more handsome. Zach also saw my picture and he couldn't stop complimenting me, however I didn't believe a single word. He said that he was already in love with my dark brown hair and green eyes. For God's sake, I wasn't beautiful! yes, my eyes were pretty rare but I got it from my mom's side. Besides that there was nothing special about me. And let's not even talk about my height. But the way he tried to convince me that I was indeed beautiful, made me somewhat believe him a little.
I loved the way he made me laugh, the way he made me smile even when I cried, the way he fought for me to believe that he liked me and everything else about him. He was something entirely different.Butterflies fluttered in my stomach when I thought about him. His image was the only thing in my mind when I was in a daze or asleep. He was like my addiction, kind of my everything. I couldn't believe that I felt like this for a guy I literally came to know about a few days before. I thought it was too soon to develop such feelings, but I forgot that love didn't always come with a time limit.
I knew that I loved Zach, but I thought it was too late because Zach didn't even talk to me anymore. Maybe I had actually lost him. For good.
It was midnight. Since tomorrow was a Saturday, I didn't have to sleep early. I was reading some sappy romantic novel when my mobile vibrated. I lost all hope of Zach ever texting me again. So I wasn't even eager to see what was it, but still I checked it. My eyes bulged out of their sockets when I saw whose text was it. It was Zach's.
Zach: hey, princess. Sorry I couldn't text you or anything these last days. I was really busy.
Busy, my foot! I wanted to yell at him, but only tears welled up in my eyes. I realized I missed him too much and it wasn't good.
Me: sure.
Zach tried to have a normal conversation, but I didn't feel up to it. I was afraid that I would be left broken by him. Again. I was afraid to get hurt. So I did what I thought was right.
Me: Zach, I've to say something. I think we should stop talking.
Zach: WHAT??! Why? What's the matter, Alex? Are you okay? Talk to me, Princess.
Me: Zach, I don't want this thing between us anymore. It would hurt more.
Zach: no no, Alex. Please don't do this. You know I like you right? So, please don't do this to me. And it hurts cuz we care. I can't do this without you.
Me: Zach, I'm doing it for your own good. I don't want to hurt you anymore, neither do I want to get hurt. So it's better if we part.
Zach: you don't know what's good for me. I can make my own decisions. Please, Alex.
Me: Zach, I want to tell you something, before I go away.
Zach: no no. You are NOT going anywhere! Don't leave me please.
Me: Zach, I tried not to do it but I did. I tried to stop myself and not to break your promise, but I couldn't. It was hard to control this untamed heart of mine. I'm sorry Zach. But I love you. I really really love you.
Zach: Alex... Why, baby? I asked for a single thing from you. Your love is gonna complicate everything. Love wasn't supposed to be included in this equation.
Me: Zach, I didn't intend to fall in love with someone who made me promise not to. I never planned to fall in love with anyone!! Now, can you tell me please why don't you love me? Why don't you want to love me? Why can't you do it? I want you to answer these last questions.
Zach: Alex, it's not so simple. I told you earlier that it's not possible. I've my reasons, baby. Believe me, if I could, I would have made this right.
Me: I don't know why the hell it isn't possible, but I can't force you or anything. I'm sorry, Zach. I did a big mistake. So, I'm going to fix it. I'll remove my account and won't ever talk to you. I promise. Best of luck. Stay happy. You deserve it. Goodbye. And I love you, Zach.
Zach: no, Alex. Wait, we can fix this.
But it was too late. I already deleted my account. I severed every tie I had with him. I sobbed hard that night. I wasn't sure if I did the right thing or not. For the first time, I got to experience the kind of love my parents had and I lost it before I could even relish in it. I left him. Just when I had the courage to fall in love, I ruined it. Everything was ruined because of me. That night, I cried myself to sleep where I dreamt about us living together without any barriers.
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A/N: Ello again!! Two updates in a day!! Well, thank you guys for reading this. I know that I am not great or something, but I am still trying. Hope that you still continue reading it.
BTW, the picture on the side is of the guy who I imagine Zach as. Sweet and sexy Nick Bateman ❤️!
See ya, Lovelies!!
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