Perfectly Wrong | S.M

Five

Perfectly Wrong | S.M
Chapter: Five
Layla

I drive and i don't even know where i'm driving, i feel sick.

Everything was finally starting to fall into place, i was starting to feel better. How could he just walk back into my life like that? Why does he think he can? How could Ellie and Liam just let him, i hadn't felt this angry since Shawn kicked me out of his life.

I park and i finally look around. I'm at mine and Shawn's spot, i haven't been here in months. I stopped thinking about him so much, i didn't feel like i needed to come here anymore.

I rub my face, "Why did i just do that? I've waited for Shawn to come back for me for years  and i drove him away" I mumble to myself

I close my eyes letting everything to sink in. I nearly jump out of my skin when the car door opens, it's Shawn.

I look at him, "So first you break my heart and then you nearly scare me death, i forgot how much of a nice person you were" I say sarcastically

He rolls his eyes, "Nice to see you're still as sarcastic as i remember" He smiles at me

I look away, "You can go now" I tell him

He shakes his head, "Not until we sort this out" He says

"You want me to be happy, right?" I ask

He nods his head, "More than anything" He tells me, it almost seems genuine

"Then don't talk to me, you did a pretty good job at that for these past few years" I give a him a sarcastic smile

He puts his hand trough his hair in frustration, "Fuck, Layla" He yells punching the dash board

"Do you expect me to forgive and forget? You have no idea what i went through those years, i saw magazines you being spotted with so many girls, when i couldn't even look at a guy without seeing you" I yell at him

"I was never interested in any other girl than you, they were just for publicity" He explains

"That doesn't explain why you did it" I tell him

He looks at me confused but that goes away once he realises what i'm talking about, "I did it because i couldn't let you wait for me, i couldn't let you wait for me to hold you if i could only do it a few times a year, okay!" He shouts

"I loved you, Shawn. I was so damn in love with you for so long. We could have been something, but you kicked me out of your life" I saying letting my feelings out

Everything i've ever wanted to say to him is coming out now, he has no idea what's coming.

"I love you too Layla, god i can't get you out of my fucking mind!" He yells

I lean over him and open the car door, "Yeah, well i couldn't get you out of mine for a few years but i did in he end, so you will too" I tell him

He shakes his head, "Just tell me how you feel about me, not what i did, about me" He begs

I look at him in the eyes, "I'm not in love with you anymore Shawn, i'm sorry"

I see the hurt in his eyes as they tear up. But then it sunk in, i wasn't in love with Shawn anymore, i'll always have love for him but i'm not in love with him. He's to late.

He takes my hand, "Layla, i'm so sorry for everything" He sobs

I look down at our hands intertwined, i pull my hand back, "Shawn, i can't do this. I'm never going to be able to trust you again" I tell him

I wipe the tears with my thumb keeping my distance, "I'm going to be here waiting for you for how ever long it takes. I made the biggest mistake of my life letting you go and i'm not doing it again" He sniffles

I put a strand of my hair behind me ear, "That's the thing Shawn, i'm not yours to let go" I explain

"I hope one day you will forgive me, i really do Layla" He frowns at me

I nod my head, "I do too"

He kisses my forehead, "Because i'm not going to stop trying"

He gets out of the car and closes the door behind him, i breath and try to calm down. I had missed his scent and his touch.

Maybe one day i will forgive him

Maybe.....