A Blank Slate II Completed

Chapter 30

Author: I am really bad about sticking to a schedule. I got stuck on this and rewrote it so many times. Also, a quick shout out to the lovely readers who came over from quotev to read this. Y'all have been with since the beginning when I first wrote this story a year ago and stills stuck with me when I took a very long break while I worked on personal matters. You guys are why I'm still here and still in love with this story.

Breathing in slowly, I release the lump that has been lodge in my throat since our last discussion in my house. Staring into those warm brown eyes, eyes that show a steely undertone that wasn't there before, his eyes show that he is different than the person I left in Korea. And now, it was time for me to also take a step into the future and grow as well from my built up insecurities, fears, and doubts that have weighed me down since that test showed a pink plus mark.

"I--" I choke and clearing my throat. Looking back into those eyes, I clench my fist tightly. "I'm ready...to let you be in mason's life."

I watch as his eyes widen and catch onto his Adam's apple that bobs as he swallows slowly.

"Really?" His voice comes out raspy and I try to ignore the shiver that runs down my spine at the smooth raspiness of his voice that first entranced me in that park from so long ago.

I nod and to show I am ready, I hand him Mason and then head around back to my desk. Grabbing the diaper bag, I walk back to him and held it out to him to take.

"Yes. I'm going to try. You deserve to be in his life and I know you will never intentionally hurt him." I look into his face, scanning the planes of his face before meeting his eyes. Letting out a weak smile, I urge him to clutch the bags strap. "I still have work to do here, but there is a park down the block here that I take him to. He likes to watch the maple trees, especially with the leaves changing."

He grins as he grabs hold of the bag. "Just like his mother. Remember the day we met?" I can't help but grin as well as I remember that warm fall day after I moved to a foreign country and decided to go on an adventure. Leading me to a small but cozy park where I heard the voice of the only man I have ever given a piece of myself to.

I let out a light laugh as my cheeks tinted pink at our awkward first encounter, "of course I do. I remember you trying to speak English to help me."

He laughs as well and looks at me incredulously, "ya, I was trying help this cute lost foreigner. Excuse me for not assuming you knew Korean."

I quirk a brow at him as I cross my arms over my chest. "Cute huh?" His eyes widen and then a sudden seriousness settles across his features

"Not just cute, but the most entrancing woman I have ever met. I was hooked the moment I laid eyes on you." He steps forward. Inching into my personal space.

Looking at him in front of me causes hair to get trapped in my lungs. His serious features as he holds our tiny son against his chest. Those large delicate hands securely holding his tiny back easily. I never thought this moment could happen, that the mere idea of Taehyung in my life. Playing a role I never thought he could ever fulfill.

"Rose..." His voice. I know what he wants, I know he wants me to accept him completely. He wants to make things work...

"Tae, I--" his phone let out a shrill ring that breaks the tension between us. He steps back and digs into his pocket. As he places it against his ear, I step back and put a hand over my chest. I can feel it racing beneath my fingertips. With the ring of the phone, I finally snapped out of the spell his hypnotic eyes put me under. I almost made a huge mistake. What was I doing? Nothing can happen between us again. Not when it's so messy with trying to figure out how to let him into our sons life when so many things can go wrong with that. I mean, look what happens in the news when idols are caught dating. Groups lose fans and many are threatened to leave the group or worse. I needed to remember why I left in the first place, why I chose to do this on my own. I can't risk hurting my child, I can't risk my life to be thrust out into the world to be judged. I can't risk all the work bts put into being who they are going to be. They are going places, and I want them to do well.

Steeling myself, I wait for him to finish his phone call. He turns back to me and smiles at me.

"Sorry, that was jungkook. He was wondering why I was taking awhile." I return his smile and gesture to the door.

"You better go then. I won't be done till 5, so I'll just come get Mason at your hotel. Just remember to be careful and stay hidden."

He walks to the door and pauses, "we'll continue this conversation later Ro. Don't think I don't where this was going." I look back up into his face and swallow at the look of determination he has.

"I won't let you run away again to protect me." With that he leaves.

Feeling all energy leave me, my legs wobble and I slump against my desks' edge.

"What the hell am I going to do?" I run my hand through my hair as I let out a puff of air. Even I don't think I have the resolve to fight him again when he is that determined. And that is what scares me most.

Taehyung POV

Leaving her office, I hold the tiny bundle of warmth that is clinging to my shirt with his tiny hands. He looks up at me and giggle as one reaches out to play with the necklace around my neck. Looking into his warm and kind eyes, eyes like his mother. I feel a surge of nothing before. I won't let her get away again, I won't let cowardice take control. I'm not the same weak man I was who lived in the fantasy that I can keep Rose as my secret.

"Hyung! Over here!"

Striding to the doors. I pull on my mask and join the band. I needed to have a conversation with them as well.

Author: I wrote this chapter in mind with how people reacted to Hyuna and e'dawn dating. Why do fans attack idols that choose to have a love life? I also think of bts and how people react to rumors of them possibly dating others. It's crazy how people attack not only the group but the people they are with. I mean, do you expect them to be single their whole lives? Why should fans get to date, get married, have kids. But the the mere idea of an idol doing so is unacceptable? It's not cool, nor is it fair. If you are a fan, you should support them in their personal life as well. Sorry for my rant but sheesh, its ridiculous.

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