Love & Lust (Colby Brock)

FOUR

You already know I couldn't control myself in the end last night. It was too intense for me to decline the offer.

Now let me tell you...it was fucking amazing. By far the best out of all my encounters with men.

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I wake up to a scuffling sound, mixed in with giggles & sniggers as the bedroom door creeks open.

Fuck! I fell asleep in Colby's room.

I shoot up in the bed, grabbing at the blankets and sheets to hide my bare, naked body from the intruding boys.

"Oh shit!" Corey speaks, stopping at the door as Dev runs in, barging past the stunned Corey who is frozen, stood in the door way. I think they were planning on pranking Colby...

"Shit Izzy, I tried stopping them. I'm so sorry!" Devyn apologises, holding a hand up against her forehead and the other on her hip.

I sit in the bed, half covered by the materials, but that isn't enough. With half of my body still on show to everyone, my face floods a bright, vibrant red colour. Not even just my cheeks...it's my whole face.

In my peripheral vision, yet unable to turn to him, I can see Colby starting to stir, coming out of his self-induced trance. Rubbing his face, he comes to a realisation of what is happening. Looking over at the boys stood awkwardly & myself, sitting on the bed, frozen in my position.

"Dude, what're you doing?! Don't just stand there! Get out!" Colby instructs the others using a strict, firm tone of voice.

Devyn escorts them all out, obeying Colby's order with a look of disappointment on her face as she shuts the door behind her.

"Are you okay?" He asks in concern. I don't reply. No words are able to escape my gasped mouth.

Okay, now you're probably thinking 'what the fuck is up with this bitch? So what if they saw her body?', but from a young age, I grew to be uncomfortable in my own skin and don't get me wrong I've improved...but i still have my moments.

Without a single word still able to leave the caged-prison that is my lips I get up, wrapping the single blanket around my waist and leaving the room quietly as if I was never there.

"Hey! Wait!" Colby calls from the bed. I feel bad...but it's only been a few days. It's never going to end well this way, anyway.

•••••••••

It's been a whole two weeks. Nothing has happened between Colby and I since that night. I knew it wouldn't work. I said it two weeks ago and I'll say it now.

And yes, I had the awkward 'I'm sorry' from the guys and I did accept it...obviously. It's not as if they meant anything by it. They weren't to know.

Dev and I are still close. We go out together with Kat a few times a week and nothing is any different...except Colby & I. Barely two words have been spoken between us since. Don't get me wrong, he tried! He really did! But I pushed him well away, built a castle, fort, brick wall and a moat filled with man eating sharks around my heart & all things mushy inside. You have to love yourself before you can love anyone else, right?

I pull my black skinny jeans from the hanger in the wardrobe as well as my black T-shirt and denim jacket.

Sliding into my T-shirt. I position it to what feels comfortable, squeezing into my skinny jeans, they get half way up then cause me to move in ways I never knew I could just to get them over my thighs and ass. Now just to breathe in as much as humanly possible to button up. I deserve an award just for squeezing into those.

Unlacing my Doc. Martens, I slip my feet into them, tightening the laces as my feet hit the sole. Quickly, I throw my jacket on and grab my purse, heading towards the door to go downstairs.

As I reach the top of the descending staircase, Colby happens to meet me at the top. Fucking typical...just my luck.

"What's up." He mumbles, letting me go down first. I smile sweetly at him.

"Hey." I say back quietly, refusing to let my gaze meet his.

I walk through into the kitchen where Kat and Dev are both sat waiting for me.

"Woah! You took your time!" Devyn jokes, laughing at me slightly.

"Sorry, my jeans didn't feel like complying today!" I laugh as I walk past them both with Colby walking behind me silently.

I click the kettle and put the contents of my cup together while I wait for the kettle to finish boiling. Coffee, two sugars and milk. I pour the boiling hot water into the cup and stir it with a tea-spoon to dissolve the coffee and sugar.

Picking up the fast-warming cup of coffee, I walk over with it to the table where Kat and Devyn are still sat.

"So where are we going today losers?" I ask, taking a small sip of my coffee.

"Hmm...where do you want to go?" Kat answers with another question, not getting anywhere.

"We could go for lunch?" Dev suggests.

"Ooohhh drive through? I've never been to a drive through before!" I pipe up, getting a little excited at the thought.

"What? You've never been to a drive through?" Devyn questions in amazement.

"Nope! Never!" I shake my head before drinking my drink again.

"I'm down." Kat agrees with my idea.

"Okay, drive through it is."

I finish my drink and we all go out to pile into my car parked on the street.

I pull my phone from my back pocket and plug it into the AUX cable attached to the car's stereo. Scrolling through my playlist, I decide on 'Cupid's chokehold' by Gym Class Heroes. Kat knows it word-for-word because she and Sam covered it once. Apparently it's on Spotify so check that out. They're fucking adorable.