Help Me, From Everyone

Hello! Welcome All!

Song: Lifeline by We Three

(We Three is a group currently on Americas Got Talent and it consists of 1 girl and 2 guys that are siblings that have a heartbreaking story of how they lost their mother and as a family really fell apart, but are here now and to continue making music for her legacy!)

I have chose this song also because of a story going on with my grandma.

She is my mothers mom and when my mom was younger, she didn't really grow up around having a father, so it was just my grandma and my mom, and aunt!

My grandma was never religious when my mom and aunt were younger, but as I was growing up around her, she was a very religious person and attached to God.

There is nothing wrong with that, nothing wrong with being a Christian, nothing wrong with going to church every morning, but we aren't a very religious family. Her being the way she was, was just different for us.

She got so attached to the nuns at her church and was telling us about these nuns telling her she was eating wrong, or drinking wrong things, and believing in the wrong things.

She became an extremest.

Mind you I never saw her too often, but when I did, I had the best times with her. She means a lot to me.

We found out she stopped taking a certain medication that helped her not go so crazy and just out of this world, she wouldn't drink Poland Spring water because there was something in it she was told not to drink.

My mothers family got very concerned for her health and we had to send her to a hospital. She is now still trying to recover, but she won't ever be the same...

I am a very big hearted person, I cry at everything, I am sensitive and sometimes think too deep.

I felt broken. I just felt like I lost a piece of my family. I haven't seen in her in maybe 2 years. My cousins live in another state, and used to see her every holiday, but now they can't. So how are they doing..? Does my grandma remember the moments we had together..? Will I ever get her back...

This song is just a connection to it for me and may connect to you as well.

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I think I am going to try and add a song I love at the moment to every message on each chapter or little moment I make!

Just as a hello I am a 16 year old girl in 11th grade in the USA.

My name and face won't be shared unless I feel comfortable enough, (and also I am ugly so like... No? Haha)

I am a very diverse person in music types I like, activities so feel free to comment and ask questions when it comes to all of that!!

Today's Topic:

A moment in your life where you saw light at the end of the tunnel, but couldn't catch it in time, and had to find it again.

I think that this moment happens to me a lot in school. I have extremely bad anxiety and have struggled with depression, but I was helped by my therapist and now I don't have a therapist, which means she did her job! Some people that get a therapist will have one for the rest of their lives and that's okay! It's not wrong at all so if you have one and you don't need them anymore it means they did their job and if you still have one, you will be ok and they are just your support or Lifeline. (See the song connection? Aye? Aye? Ok I'll go)

But I had a huge 10th grade/sophomore speech on a topic of my choice and it was on anxiety and how to help people with it and how we act differently but don't want to be treated like glass and different!

I think I was really confident on my speech and what I had written, so I thought I found the confidence in myself (the light), but when the day I was schedule to speak, I lost all confidence, my voice was shaky and I couldn't seem to spit out words and practice before I had to go up, I was just broken and really hated myself again. (Losing that light). To this day I can't say I have found that light again.

Thanks for reading and please be kind in the comments, not being nice... that's how we lead to trouble and an awful unwelcoming place, but this is to be welcoming to everyone!

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