this is real life? >jg<

just give me a break

chapter 14:

joey.

what do i do

do i tell him

no! i cant

"oh hey there you are!" he said with a smile

"hi" i said nervously

"what happened!" he said rushing towards touching my face

then my neck

i flinched at the pain

"ow joey"

"sorry but tell me! i fell down the stairs I'm fin-"

"no your not!"

"yes i am"

"are you sure i mean look at you"

"yes i promise" i said sighing

trever.

he came into my mind shockingly once i said "i promise"

my eyes were getting blurry

"liana? liana. are you okay"

"joey i think you need to leave"

"what why"

"just i dont think we should see eachother anymore"

"liana are you sure what you are talking about"

"yes joey"

"why are you telling me to leave dont you love me? i thought we were going to be together forever!why did you say yes anyway did you ever love me was this a set up! well i hope your happy liana charming. because i never liked you..i regret going into that hospital room and meeting you i thought you cared about me im glad cause i didnt for sure! thanks for spending time cause i would've spent that time doing something more enjoyable i hate you!" he said yelling angirly

he opened and shut the door roughly

of course i was crying while joey said all these horrible things about me

why did i ever fall for this asshole

i crawled into a ball and laid in my bed for the rest of the day

next morning:

i woke up by the light shining in my eyes from my windows

i didnt want to get out of my bed

i just wanted to end my life

this brought the thought of my parents

~

they died from a murder when i was 8

i had to stay with my aunt and uncle and my 2 cousins

did i ever mention i have no siblings?

well i dont.

so my cousins felt like siblings but i just never got the feeling

after the news of my parents

i was devastated.

i didnt want to get out bed EVER!

i wanted to die and be with my family.

i just wanted to give everything up.

i didnt eat for weeks.

until i was sent to hospital for 8 months

it was the worst time of my life!

i would seem like the perfect beauty girl on youtube

but actually im not

ive been through so much

and nobody ever gives me a break

but when i was 15 i met trever

he kind of brought me out of my troubles

of course i had callie

i mean i had her sense the first day of kindergarden

but that time she was on a trip with her family at the time

trever would somehow trick me into being happy

he was always by my side

but then he found out that his parents divorced

he brought all the anger on me

the punches.

kicks.

bruises.

scars.

anything.

one night i couldn't take it anymore

i locked myself in the bathroom

and grabbed a razor

i cut 12 cuts right on my left arm

it took some of the stress but not all.

but trever wouldn't notice the scars (of course)

because well he never paid attention to what he was actually doing to me

i remember calling the cops after trever left my house after beating me

sirens. red and blue lights

yelling.

having me sent to the hospital -again-

trever was sent to jail

but i guess he got out

~

after the thought i looked down and my left arm

they was still the 12 scars

callie didnt know about them

cause i never showed it

i didnt want her to notice i mean its not a big deal

but the thing i dont understand is

why does all of this have to happen to me?

what did i ever do to deserve all this shit!?

joey.

i fucking hate you.