Naked

Naked WP 006 (The Unpublished Edition)

2017 ko rin 'to nasimulan. Ito sana 'yung story ko na akala ko mag-iiba ng image ko (hahaha). 'Nung time na 'yun, gusto ko nang mag-iba ng genre (Romance pa rin, pero hindi na erotic romance. Naloka ako sa mga readers na ginawang---excuse me for the term--- "parausan" ang stories ko. I didn't intend to make this account a porn site. Jeskelerd.) Anyway, the plot didn't go the way I originally intended it to. Sa huli, naging dark 'yung sana'y light lang na story na plano ko. Wala namang problema sa 'kin 'yun. So far kasi, nagwo-work naman sa 'kin 'yung plot, conflict, at characters. I unpublished it because I want to write it better.

This was started on 2017. I had the plot and the conflict, kaso I wasn't feeling the characters, e. Medyo detached ako sa kanila kaya hanggang Chapter 3 lang ang na-publish ko rito. Dito ako pinakanahirapan mag-unpublish kasi gusto ko talagang mag-work out 'yung story kaso hindi pa talaga time ng mga characters. Pero in fairness, compared sa other stories ko, dito ako pinaka-looking forward sa mga love scenes between the characters (hahaha). Siguro dahil sa nature ng relationship nila, that they were friends who liked each other secretly and pretended to just treat their sexual arrangement as business. For me, it was romantic and hot and frustrating. Gusto ko 'yun.

This one began in 2016, around December. By that time ilang buwan na rin ako sa Wattpad. Ito 'yung masasabi kong pinaka-"wholesome" ko na story, in that my original plan was that the heroine would keep her V-card until the last chapter, saka lang nila iko-comsummate ni hero ang relasyon nila. Kaya nga Confessions Of A Virgin ang title. This one was more like a sexy romance than an all-out erotic romance. However, I had to pull this out kasi hindi pa gaanong plantsado 'yung conflict na nabuo ko for this story.

This one's unknown to most of my present readers. Kasabayan 'to ng TGHLTF at HTTAWTBAW, circa 2016 pa 'to. But unlike those two, this one was aborted after chapter one. Hindi ko matandaan kung bakit ko in-unpublish 'to no'ng time na 'yun. Ang natatandaan ko, this one was like TGHLTF rin, in a sense that it started out with a lot of bed scenes and had little plot.

Some readers may think na sayang 'yung stories na na-unpublish, but 'yung mentality ko kasi is that if I can do better, I'll go for it. Hindi ko iniisip na "sayang", kasi after all, hindi ako natatakot maubusan ng ideas. Hindi ako "masochistic" na magtitiyaga na lang ako sa isang story kasi tutal nasimulan na siya o tutal maraming nag-aabang. I always write for my soul's and mind's pleasure, not for an audience.

Ayokong mag-aksaya ng panahon sa pagsusulat ng story na alam kong hindi na nagwo-work para sa 'kin. Good thing, kahit may pagka-OC personality ako ay wala akong issues sa "unfinished business". Hindi ko lagi kailangan ng closure. I can deal with things the way they are. Sana 'yung iba, subukan din 'yun.

Naiintindihan ko naman na nag-invest din 'yung readers ng panahon at feelings sa mga stories at characters, kaya hindi maiwasang manghinayang sila sa hindi natapos na kuwento. Pero isipin na lang sana nila na kung ako nga na nag-isip at nagsulat ng mga stories at characters na 'yun naka-move on, kaya rin nilang maka- get over.

I'm studying and I'm working; I don't have that much free time to use for other things. I have to be practical.

I refuse to be guilted, threatened, and ordered to do things.

In the end, it's my stories, my call. Respeto na lang po sana, ano?