CRUSHED GOLA

CRUSHED

Kongpob reached his dorm and relaxed his heart and racing mind. He felt he had committed a blunder by directly presenting himself to Arthit and locking horns with him straight forwardly.  He was so embarrassed that he thought of not attending the college for few days and  settling in his house.   But then he thought about his mother's endless rants about studies and importance of education in one's life and also about his so called understanding friends denning themselves in his dorm or coming to meet him directly to his house and thereby he giving chance to his friends to babble about his hatred for studies and thereby inviting trouble for himself from his parents.   He dropped the idea and felt that he was old enough to handle the battle on his own.  

To be told about his crush on Arthit, he was not serious at all.  He loved watching BL series especially, Thais and reading mangas.  So he thought to change his course of life according to modern trend. But he had second thought about it since his first encounter with Arthit was quite weird so he was wondering whether he should risk everything for today's fad thing called boy's love.  Kongpob was quite famous in his first  year students' gang and almost every girl was eyeing him.  But he did not throw any glance and as he was engrossed in his own world.  But his weird encounter as he thought so was taking a toll on him and he finally decided to drop the idea of chasing Arthit and making him as his.  

Arthit would always remain as his crush, first boy's crush as he had several other crushes especially towards opposite gender, but towards his own gender Arthit was a beautiful, cute, wonderful and honest crush, which he thought of making it into love for his entire entity on  this earth, which could come true now.  He  was becoming emotional and serious, which he did not want to be.  So he sighed for one last time and crushed himself in gola with varying flavours or rather emotions of sadness, defeat and hopelessness about Arthit.

"Good bye Arthit, you will ever be my first and last crush".

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Now I am getting ideas but mostly to break them.   Hahahahaha, what do you say?  Should I do that.  Comments are most welcome.