22nd August
The guilt I feel is not from a wrong doing
It's not from a mistake I made or a choice that lead me astray
Yet it eats at my mind and drives me into madness
I have done nothing wrong accept be comfortable
I flatten my chest and I feel so much better
So why do I feel bad after?
Why do I feel as though I shouldn't be doing it
I should flaunt my chest and body shape
I should show off my feminine features and long hair
I look beautiful in a dress with my makeup done and my hair curled
I love the way I look when I am feminine
When I wear my dresses and flaunt my figure
When I go out with friends, eyeliner and lipstick are always on my face
Why do I crave the feeing of my binder but feel guilt for wearing it daily as well?
Why do I admire myself with a flatter chest and loose clothes or with makeup and tight fitting clothing but not as just myself?
Why do I feel bad for longing to be the person I want to be?
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Late night thoughts
Não FicçãoWaking up during the night because of nightmares or just on my own usually leads me down a path of thinking. So I write what I think and these are some of the things I have written. These are a few of my late night thoughts
