The library

February 6th 2004

Sorry for the terrible update rate. I know I'm disappointing everyone that's interested in this story. I suppose I just haven't been in the right position to write this. I feel like I always need to be in this "mode" to write as Charlotte. Recently I've been writing a different story and I feel more connected to that currently but I thought enough is enough and that it's time to get back into Charlotte mode.

It's a rather short chapter but I've got big things planned. Enjoy!

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Me and Alex hadn't spoken in a week since I realised he started to act weird. I didn't know what his problem was.

I was sat at a bench in Mortomley Park, cuddling up to the boy beside me.

Lawrence Fitch.

I met him in college. He was taking the same course as me. At first I though he was a massive dickhead but when I accidentally ruined his painting by spilling a water pot on it and he laughed it off, I realised he might not actually be that bad.

He was classically attractive. He towered over the rest of the boys in the class by at least two inches. His jawline was sharp and prominent and his curly, blonde hair was long and soft. He seemed like the exact opposite of Alex.

Yet here he was, comforting me on a park bench, because of Alex.

"I just don't know... one minutes he loves me and I feel like I'm the centre of his universe and the next he pushes me away and it's like I'm just a piece of shit on his shoe." I sighed as I rested my head against Lance's neck. His coat was wet with my tears.

"He's not worth your tears babe." Lance said quietly and rubbed my shoulder.

"As much as you say that Lance... I can't help but... feel that he is." I sighed shakily and pulled away from the blonde.

He rubbed my back before withdrawing his arm from me and sitting with his hands in his lap silently.

"You're single, right?" I watched lance's face for a reaction.

He chuckled quietly and nodded. "Yeah I s'pose."

I frowned and cocked my head to the side. "What do you mean 'I suppose'"

He shrugged and laughed dryly again. "I'm just coming out of a four year relationship and I'm just in shock of how badly I got fucked over."

My expression completely softened and I hugged him tightly. "I'm sorry I asked."

"It's fine." Lance whispered and kissed my cheek.