Love
If You asked Taehyung what love is he would answer a word that doesn't exist
Say that it's a word we made up to believe someone loved us, believe that if we said it the person would say it back
It was so easy to say it back but it was harder to mean it. To say it without hesitating, to make sure you know it without having to say words to believe it
But it was never like that for Taehyung, love didn't exist for him neither did he feel it.
He was 5 when he remembered how it felt to be hugged. Hugs full of love and warmth. But would he be weird if he told you the hugs he got didn't feel like love at all and only cold in his arms
He was 10 when he first got a friend after being fine on his own. A friend that made him laugh and was there whenever he needed him. But Taehyung could still feel no love or heart in the laughs or when his friend told him it's going to be okay
He was 14 when he got his first love letter full of love and emotion. But why did it feel se heartless, so cold and so out of the world for him
He didn't know if he should blame it on the world for being so cold that every love he saw and felt made it seem as cold
Or if he just was meant to feel alone no mater how much love he got.
But he was fine
If you asked him?
Of Course he would tell you he was fine
But why didn't you see that he wasn't? Why didn't you see that his words were nowhere near truth
It's the same with love it's just a word you say but do you mean it?
I wish you would mean it
•••••••
"Fuck, I forgot to turn on my phone my moms gonna think I'm dead again"
Jimin cursed opening his phone to be hit with thousands of calls and messages from his mother.
They were all sitting In the living room at 1 am deciding to watch a movie to welcome Jungkook to his temporarily home.
Sure it was late but no one really wanted to use their energy to care tonight.
Taehyung was used to feeling uncomfortable but this time it was really making him more that uncomfortable as he could feel the intense stare of Jungkook across from his couch.
He really didn't dare to move his head the entire time they had been here scared to accidentally make eye contact with the guy
"Damn man, it feels sad seeing robin Williams in movies now that his dead"
Hoseok said focusing on the movie good will hunting playing on the tv. It was a movie Taehyung really never got tired of
It just reminded him of himself sometimes, he never really liked watching movies anymore as they never mentioned how it really was in reality only covering it with happy and positivite movies
It was hard to find but there was some movies that made him feel like he was not alone, that someone really cared for people and showed them the reality of this world that everyone tried so hard to cover
Something he was good at
"So Jungkook, what do you do for fun?"
Jungkook turned his gaze from Taehyung not even noticing his been staring at the boy this whole time only to turn it to yoongi who was laying down on the couch his arm under his head and eyes turned to the raven haired boy.
"Not much. Usually just go out with friends and stuff"
He answered yoongi as he was missing to stare at Taehyung not realizing why he was thinking so much about the said boy.
Yoongi only hummed before letting the darkness take over his eyes.
The other boys stretched as the scrolling credits rolled down the screen. It was almost 4 am, all really tired
"Well, we should head to sleep it's almost morning"
Seokjin Said before yawning right after his sentence, the boys agreed as they started to get up lazily from their seats making Jungkook and Taehyung accidentally glance at each other
It felt like Jungkook wanted to say something to the boy but didn't know what. It made things frustrating
Taehyung never felt so emberassed just being around jungkook. It was weird, a really weird feeling for him
"So Jungkook is it okay if you share rooms with Taehyung? We don't really have an extra ro-"
"Yeah Yeah, I'm good"
Jungkook said not letting Namjoon finish his sentence as they all just nodded surprised. And Taehyung? Well he was probably on the verge of having a panic attack
He has never shared a room with his friends before, sure yoongi would sleep with him on the days he couldn't handle his feelings anymore
But this felt different
Really different
A/N
Who invented school I just wanna talk
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SUICIDE HOTLINE | KOOKV
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