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Ch.14

He was that

He was this

But he was never like this before

Taehyung had heard a lot of that damn word. In fact he almost heard it every day when he still lived at his parents house. He never complained about his family, they were fine he guess. They didn't hit him nor did they drink they simply were parents. His parents

But he still felt like they were never going to get close with each other, they may be standing close to him but he was not

He never knew how to explain it, how to say it. But he didn't like them at all. He once did oh he really did but then the words started coming in and messing with his mind. Constantly on an on complaining about him and only him

When the have fun honey changed to can you dress normal for one second. Such a small comment but such a big affect on his start of teenage years. They never stopped

You're such an embrassement do you know that

You never study, do you want to end up like your brother

Stop dressing like a homeless person

Why can't you be like every other boy in your age

If you're getting friends then why can't you be more like them

Such an disappointment

But he was studying they just weren't there when he did

And he did, he did try every second in his life to make his parents proud of him and give him the love they used to. But that just never happened

He was angry, really angry at how his parents never saw how hurting he was how much that was going on in his head

Maybe it was just his fault for always pretending to be something he wasn't. But couldn't they see, couldn't they stop putting pressure over the already much pressure he had

The funny thing is he never had problem with constant bullying he never had to tell he's parents a kid is bullying me so his parents could go and argue with the principle

He felt like his parents were the bullies, they pushed him down when he was already at the edge. They made his days worse then they already were. It hurted him more that hearing it from bullies

So he's sorry but he can't love them anymore

Not like he used to

Because right now he was not what his parents wanted him to be and if they don't want that then why should he try to get their love when they won't give it

Don't blame him he's not at fault is he

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"Okay so why is no one talking about collage start?"

Jin said when they all were sitting on the couches around the television watching a random movie that was on. Snuggled under a single blanket

"Because no one wants to be reminded of it you fucker!"

Jimin groaned throwing his pillow at Jin who only laughed because he didn't have collage like the others so why not tease them

"When does it start anyway?"

Taehyung asked laying at the edge of the couch where the seven of them were fighting for space. Jungkook was beside him constantly pulling the blanket back over Taehyung when he accidentally pulled it down making the elder laugh everytime

"Wednesday"

"That's in two days!"

Taehyung yelled out. Oh, no one told you this but Taehyung is the biggest never be late for back to school preparations. He would always take out things weeks before school to be ready because he was always nervous. Afraid that he forgot something or he would forget to bring something with him

So don't. Don't tell him school starts in two days when you should be telling him 1 month before

"Hey, calm down Tae I can help you get your stuff ready"

Hoseok reassured him when Taehyung had got up from the couch passing back and forth mumbling under his breath

"No! No you don't understand I need to know when the school starts! When the school ends, when break is, what to bring, what the goddamn schedule is and oh my god what if there's no one I know! I didn't even buy everything-"

Taehyung got cut off when Jungkook who was watching the whole thing surprised and slightly panicked seeing this side of Taehyung

didn't realize that he had gotten up himself and rushed over to stop the rambling boy by grabbing his hand and dragging him towards their room

"Hey, hey it's okay, We can buy the things before school starts okay?"

He said calming the other down when they got inside the room. He had sat him down on the bed while crouching down opposite him still holding his hand between his, rubbing his thumb over it at a soothing pace

Taehyung stopped biting his lips anxiously and looked up at Jungkook

"R-really, today?"

Jungkook chuckled at the cute boy infront of him, He maybe liked to discover these new sides of Taehyung to much

"Yeah, yeah today. Whenever you want"

Jungkook answered laughing. The night wasn't going to stop them was it nor that it was past midnight and all the shops were probably closed.

"And besides I'm starting collage too if you have forgotten, I will be there with you"

A/N

Is this slow? I like slow

Do y'all like slow? I don't know