Wolf

Chapter 11

July 22, 20xx

Dear Trip,

It was a rainy day when we first met in the coffee shop. When we first touched, it was because I dropped something and we both bent down to pick it up. At first I thought that the shocking feeling I felt was because you had a hard head. Haha. But later we touched again and I felt it again. I asked you if you felt it, and you nodded. I thought, 'Wow, is this what people mean when they say they feel sparks with their romantic partners?' That is what made me want to get to know you better. It was magical.

You were the one who asked me to be your wife two weeks after. I thought you were serious, but it turns out that you just messed up. You meant Girlfriend. I was so happy because the weeks before I was scared that you might not feel the same way as I did. Honestly, you are such an amazing person that I fell for you the moment I saw you for the second time.

While we were going out, those days were the happiest days of my life. I mean, they still are. Nothing could compare to the happiness you gave me. Those beautiful blue eyes and blonde hair were my treasure that the whole world could see if they wanted to, but that smile you gave me and the way you said my name. No one could compete with it. You always did it the best.

You took me moutain climbing and I was afraid but I just didn't show it. I wanted to be strong enough for you. We did a lot of crazy things. Soon it just became a custom for us.

When my parents divorced, you were there by my side. You never left my side even though your  father was a busy man and wanted you to follow his lead and to not worry about me. When my father decided to move out of town and wanted me to go along, I didn't because just like you, I would have stayed by your side no matter what.

I regret to admit, but I did leave you. There's a secret I never told you. I have a heart problem that can't be fixed. My parents were and still are living on scraps, so they can't afford medication. What I need is a heart transplant... I never told you, because I thought that it would change us. You always treated me like I was your equal.

I just wanted to say that I am so sorry that it seemed I was afraid of you. That day you told me you were a werewolf. I thought it was just a crazy dream, but the look in your eyes were too real. It seems like I ran away from you, but when you explained to me about the bond between mates, I thought that you deserved someone that actually had longer to live. I'm just a weak human and you're a magestic being. You deserve better.

I left to live with my father without telling you... I swear I was not afraid of you. I was afraid of us. I was selfish. I was afraid of being rejected by you, so I rejected you first in a way. I was scared that when you find out about my condition, you would hate me even more. As if being a human wasn't weak enough for you.

I never planned or plan to come back. I will die any day now. I feel it in the air. Now I'm writing this letter to you before I die to let you know that I never stopped thinking about you. I wanted to see you so bad, but I stopped myself. I'm a coward in love. Yes, I still love you. And It's not because of the mate thing. It's because you showed me how to not fear heights and to take chances. Sadly in the end I wasn't able to apply what you've taught me to our relationship...

By the way, I found out that you hired a private investigator. I caught him one day and told him to not tell you about my heart condition. I was being selfish again... I think I deserve to die like this. I'm such a horrible and stupid person...

The hoplessly hopless and regretting human mate of yours,
Angie Angel Abeline

P.s I'll love you even after death. <3

Julia looked over to Trip and he was silently sobbing. He was muttering things to himself. It was as if Angie was in the room and he was talking to her. Julia didn't know what to do. Was it really okay that she read it? This was personal stuff... Maybe she should have never barged into the room in the first place.

Then Trip got up and walked over to grab the envelope and letter. He shook the envelope upside down and a bracelet fell out. The scent of his mate wafted tbrough the air and he held back tears. On the letter, he could see where tear drops of Angie's were and dried up. His own tears joined those of Angie's  as he reread the letter to himself.

"She didn't die because of her heart problem..." Trip shook his head. "She finally decided to come back for the last time yesterday night... On her way, she died in a car accident."

"She was coming back to me at last, but she died doing so. What kind of mate am I? It's just like they say, I'm a pathetic excuse for an Alpha... My mate was human and weak, I should have just let her go and take my Alpha responsibilities more seriously. Human... It means freedom... Because of my alpha heritage, I was bound to my pack and couldn't chase after her."

Julia's blood boiled. "Having a human mate does not make you weak, it's having a mate that makes you strong. Even after your mate is gone, you have to stay strong and live on. No one is ever too good or too bad. No one is ever too weak or too strong. All that matters is the bond! If you ever had the strong bond, that is what you need because even after your mate is gone, all they've taught you will always be with you. All that they have said and done will be remembered. The bond will never really disapear!" Julia thought about how she would feel if Jace was gone. "It's ok to be sad and cry, but don't do it forever. Your mate will know that you always loved them even without you crying or telling them. Sometimes you have to move on with life because that is what living things do. One important thing that living things also do is they hold onto memories, but don't let themselves be held back by the ones that hurt. Angie said she still loves you right? You still love her right...?"

Jace rushed in and saw that Julia was crying. He pulled her into his arms and pat her back. Then he glared at Trip but saw that Trip was the one in pain. He still kept his arms protecively around Julia. Then asked whatbwas going on.

"You got a wise mate there, make sure you never let her go..." Trip said emotionless again. He was taking in all that Julia had said. "Could you two get out now?"

Jace nodded and led Julia to her room. They sat on the bed and Julia told what had happened. She didnt go into much detail though. Jace tried to cheer hee up and soon she was asleep. He placed a kiss on her head and left to his room.

That day that when he went to pick up the box, that investigator guy finally decided to tell him about Angie's condition. He said that Trip had not been answering his calls and that he had not recieved his Email messeges so since Jace was living in the same place, the investigator wanted Jace to tell even though Angie didn't want Trip to know.

Jace banged his head on his door as he closed it. If only he had told Trip that day, Trip would have stopped all his Alpha duties and went to see her no matter what. It was all Jace's faultand he felt so bad. He should have offered to continue taking care of Trip's work. It was because Trip was too busy with his bussiness that he never answered any calls or read any E-mails non-related to his job. He probably thought that those calls and E-mails were just more little bits and pieces of information about Angie that could wait for later.

After taking a shower, he went to bed. The next day he planned to confront Trip. He felt like if Trip didn't beat the crap out of him, then he would feel guilty for the rest of his life. He deserved anything that was coming his way.

When Julia woke up, she was surprised to see that she was not in Jace's room. She panicked and got up to open her door immediately. The hall was dark and eerie. She figured that she really hated dark hallways and quickly went to open Jace's door. She decided to turn wolf to make her feel less jumpy and then climbed into bed with Jace without waking him up.

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A/N: so what did you think? Comment!! hehe... Am I too hard on my characters? Read the next chapter to fi d out what happens when both of Trip and Jace's parents come back! Thanks for reading!!