Bleeding Kisses

4: Awkward.

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Awkward.

You know that feeling when someone is staring at you? You get uneasy and really uncomfortable. Well, I'm in that situation now. The worst part? The one who is staring at you is the one you encountered with the most epic moment.

" Cy, Am I dreaming?" Nate asked in disbelief. "The girl of every guy's dream is only ten feet away from me!"

I raised my eyebrow at him then looked at the direction of his eyes. And there you have it. Standing ten feet away from us is the 'Queen' of the school. AKA ' Ms. Perfect'. 

She's staring at me but from the looks of her eyes, it's not the blank one or the cold one, neither the empty look. It's ... longing? Longing?!

 I can't take away my eyes from her. I feel numb and it's like someone is holding me, failing me to make any movements away from her. It's either that one or I'm just really attracted to her or it's the sign of old age.

" Why is she here?" I asked Nate not taking my eyes away from her.

" I'm not really sure but I think she must be here because she already noticed me!" Nate beamed like a girl.

" Nate, don't get your hopes up. " I replied to Nate looking at him now that I'm able to break the spell cast on me.

" I know man. But, I can dream." He smirked.

The whole time we're talking she was just staring at me but after Nate's remark I think she was able to regain her senses and put back the 'mask' she's always wearing.

Nate being Nate, ran off towards her.

" Hi Lily." Nate greeted like a gentleman. He never does that to a girl. Ever. Shoot me now.

And Lily being Lily, looked at him  then slightly smiled. Wait, more like, made a seductive smile and of course that was enough to make Nate leave reality.

" So, Lily," Nate huskily said, " what brought you here?"

" Nothing," she replied as she tilted her head towards my direction. Nate looked at my direction and flashed a what-is-it? look. I don't know what's wrong with her. First, she's like stuck up b*tch when I first met her then now, it's like we're buddies. Really, I'm lost now.

I walked over to them. " What are you doing here? This is a place that never fits people, especially your type." I said to her wanting to be rude but I know I'll just put myself in more trouble since Nate will be asking me details why I acted like that or blah blah blah.

This place is kind of mine and Nate's hideout. I said 'like' because this is just located at the back of the school building and near the garden, which is forbidden for students, making this place one too. Teachers never really bothered to go or check here because you know, students here are obedient and disciplined, excluding me and Nate. As for Lily, I don't know.

" So, you own this place now?" she asked, tilted her head to side. 

She's being sarcastic and that is defnitely a no-no for me. " If I say yes?"

She smiled or more like smirked. Her emotions are like puzzles. You can't figure out which one it is or you can't either connect them. She's very confusing ... mysterious.

" Uhh ... " I almost forgot Nate was still here until he made that comment.

" Oh. Nate." I said to him, looking at him away from Lily's gaze.

" Oh, Cy. Thanks for noticing me this whole time." he rolled his eyes and I know that I'll be making a huge explanation later. " Really, I'm honored."

" He wasn't." Lily barged in, making Nate and me, look at her, again. " He's talking and looking at me. He ven said he bought this ... area." 

When I looked at her, I can see what she said doesn't have any hint of humor. She said it like it's the  most obvious thing in the world. I guess, she's the serious type or the innocent type. You know, those people that's like been kept from this world and everything in here, making them unknowledgeable and carefree at the same time. It's like, she's a child which I found cute the moment I thought of it.

I looked at Nate, now amused, and I can see he's lost of words or let's just say, he can't think of anything appropriate  to say to her.

I decided to speak, to clear the thoughts that are currently running in my head, " Um, Lily, What Nate said was ... being sarcastic. You know, humor?"

She looked at me, with big eyes. I repeat: Wide and big terracota eyes are looking at me! Just like those kids who just recently discovered that candies are coming for them. I don't doubt it now. She's ... adorable. 

Really Cy? Adorable? I asked myself. Maybe I should visit a therapist? I can't really understand what kind of human being I am now and worse, I don't know what's going on inside my head. The last minute, I'm being rude to her; hating her from the depths of my skin and now, I'm admiring her, again? Wow. Just ... wow.

" Oh, I see. Sorry." She said  making me come back to reality. She looks embarrassed. Wait.That's actually just for a second. She immedietely masked it on with her stoic face, making me confused again about her emotions. She's really hard to read. " ... humor." She softly mumbled with a mix of wonder .

No one spoke for a minute or two, and now, I can barely stand the atmosphere of  'awkwardness'. Nate, who is still. Lily, looking cold as ever and is currently looking at the ground with her head tilted to the side which I guess is her 'thinking pose' or I'm-currently-figuring-something-out- pose. And me, well ... of course, I'm the one filling all the infromation that is happening before my eyes.

We all jumped out as the bell warned us that break is over; get our asses to the classroom now. I never thought I'd be praising such thing that creates irritating and very loud annoying noise which I  started to hate since I stepped to my own personal hell: school. But I think all grudges should be forgotten now that this 'such thing' just saved me from the upcoming moments of awkwardness.

" Nate the-" 

" Bell rang. Yeah I know." He cut me off which I rolled my eyes for. " Lily, so, see you around?" Nate asked, his flirty mode on.

She looked away from staring at the school window which the warning bells are mostly located. " Yeah. See you around." She slightly smirked while looking at me, not even giving Nate a glance.

That sounded more trouble for me. Nate didn't notice that glance but I am sure he won't forget what happened earlier. 

After that glance, she walked away like a model, which is how she really moves, leaving me with Nate who came back to his dreamy state again as he watched Lily. If I were to have feelings for that girl, I think it's like fighting with a hundred of dogs out there. And if I were to ask myself if I have a chance, it's also like asking if my dad gave birth to me.

But that's not my current problem because what awaits me is worse than being in the atmosphere I've been earlier. Nate's hot seat. He's actually multi-talented. He can talk and piss you off at the same time and what's coming for me, from him is much worse. Imagine a girl having PMS. You've had the image? Great. Then multiply it by ten. 

Kill me now.

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A/N:

I want to say sorry infinite times for updating late, to those who are reading this (if there are some). I got busy because of my homeworks and our exam is this week -_- 

So, you can see this story is slow on progress so don't expect too much. But me being me, I might change my mind and finish this off. Just kidding :) It is true I'm a confusing person so the story might flow faster, but you never know. In short: continue reading this story for the results :)

I dedicated this story to -TheWayYouLoveMe- because I love her story " Dangerous Criminal" and it's a thanks to her because she keeps on updating :> Check it out, it's really good!

Lastly, the pic on the side is Nate. Thanks for reading :)