"Is everything ok?" Johnny asks me on the bus.
"Yeah I'm fine. Why?"
"You've barely been eating lately. The only thing I've seen you eat yesterday was half a granola bar"
"Oh you noticed that?" I asked rubbing the nape of my neck.
"Of course I did. Now what's going on."
"Nothing"
"I know when you're lying."
"Fine" I sigh. "My trainers told me I have to loose 10 pounds before the next comeback and it's almost impossible."
"They told you what?" He based.
"I mean I get why they said it. I am on the chubby sid-" I tried to explain
"Stop saying that about yourself. You're perfect in every way possible. You don't have to loose any weight or change anything else about you. So screw them, and you do you." He told me. "I love you just the way you are."
Before I had a chance to respond Jisung walks up to me handing my an envelope.
"Happy birthday."
"Thank you" I say getting ready to open it.
"Don't!" I look up at him in confusion. "Don't open it until midnight... When you're alone."
"Okay..." I drag. "Thanks anyway" I say and he walks off.
"I don't trust it." Johnny squints his eyes at it while I put it in my purse.
"It's a harmless envelope, how can you not trust it."
*Midnight*
I sit in my room fiddling with the envelope, being more afraid than I should be. I mean what if I shouldn't trust it like Johnny said. I tear open the envelope in one swift motion pulling out a 'happy birthday' card. I open it to see $40 slip out and Jisung's handwriting on the card.
'happy birthday. We have one more year together before I graduate from the the dream unit. I'll be leaving you with new people. But you'll be okay.
Today was the first snowfall. I wanted to tell you how I feel but couldn't build up the courage to tell you face-to-face. So I'm writing it instead of being a coward and not saying anything at all
I like you. That's why I was crying in the closet at the Osaka showcase. I knew about your relationship with Johnny before everyone else did. I don't expect you to return my feelings. I just wanted to tell you instead of being a wimp. Please don't show anyone this card. ESPECIALLY JOHNNY! HE'D KILL ME. Anyways...
Happy birthday and have a blessed day and enjoy your time as and 18 year old I wish I did.'
Wait how do you just drop a bomb like that and just say happy birthday like nothing just happened?!
I throw the card and the cash into the bottom drawer of my nightstand and try to fall asleep but with no luck at all.
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Adrenaline- NCT Johnny Seo Ff
FanfictionThe 19th member of NCT. loved by... most. But mostly by one person. through all the hate you receive as a member one person sticks up for you and you fall in love. But nobody can know.
