The New Girl | Liskook

Part 10

Lisa's P.O.V.

I walked into class with Jisoo, feeling completely exhausted. I think Jisoo could feel it, since she unsuccessfully kept trying to cheer me up.

"Lisa, seriously. What's up? Why are you so...I don't know...depressed?" Jisoo unnie asked me. She looked at me with concern, but I avoided her gaze as much as I could just because I didn't want her to see my pain. I mean, since she was Jisoo and she was the clever friend who knew everything since the beginning - she'd probably already seen it, but it was better if I just avoided everything.

"Come on", she sighed. "You can tell me anything, and you know that. You can trust me."

She didn't understand. This wasn't trust we were talking about. I didn't know how or why, but it just wasn't. I knew I trusted Jisoo unnie, but telling her about Jungkook wouldn't have made me feel better. I already knew what she was going to react like if I told her anyways - she'd call him a jerk and say I should forget him, which obviously wasn't helpful, because I already knew that. How could I have let myself fall in love so quickly? Especially with Jeon fucking Jungkook of BTS. I sighed loudly, looked away from Jisoo unnie, and kept walking forward. 

"Lisa, please", Jisoo unnie insisted, but I just ignored. 

I couldn't stop thinking of Jungkook, of what he's done to me, and how his plain words broke my heart. Soyeon and her friends were right - he really is a player AND a jerk. I hadn't closed an eye the previous night, as I was too busy crying over what happened.

Why? Why him? Why did he have to break my heart like that? I kept thinking desperately. I thought he was different - I really, genuinely did. Turns out I was wrong. He is just like the other ones. 

Class started, but I couldn't concentrate. I looked at Jisoo and Rosé unnies, who were sitting beside me on my left side. Rosé unnie was fidgeting with her red ink pen and pouting, while Jisoo unnie was just sitting quietly and listening, though she didn't seem like she was actually understanding a single word of what the teacher said. Well, both of them were certainly bored, just like me - science was clearly not our favorite subject. 

I looked on my right side, at Joy and Yujin. They were having a side conversation and laughing - Joy was extremely energetic and optimistic, as always - her nickname isn't Joy for no reason, you know. 

I looked on the other side of the room, and saw BamBam. BamBam and I are close friends ever since Thailand - along with Minnie, Sorn, and other Thai students - so we know each other really well. He buys me my favorite food, always offers to pay when we go out somewhere, and he even listens to be blabbering when I like a boy. Therefore, when one of us is looking at the other one, we can sense each other's eyes. As I looked at him, he immediately looked back at me, and we started communicating using our eyes and eyebrows. He could feel my pain, so he communicated something like:

"What's wrong with you today?"

I smiled dumbly as I looked back at him, to indicate that nothing was wrong. He obviously didn't believe me. But I could not tell him that I liked Jungkook. I just didn't have the courage to tell ANYONE, apart from Jennie unnie who was traveling somewhere outside of Korea so she was going to miss school for 5 days. Thank God 4 of them passed, which meant tomorrow she was going to finally be back and I could tell her what happened. 

I still couldn't believe it though.