The Troubled [COMPLETED]

Chapter seventeen

Jungkook stared at me completely in shock but I could see as he had tears in his eyes, "Why're you crying?" I asked him. He remained silent as he just stared at me not saying a thing, a few hiccups escaped as he couldn't stay silent for much longer, "Jungkook-" "-I'm so, so sorry Zoey!" He bursted out as he hugged me.

I patted his back, "Why're you so, so sorry for me?" I was genuinely confused. Somebody feeling sorry for me???

Now this was new.

"Why am I worried about you?? You want to to why?" I carefully nodded my head as I didn't want him to have a heart attack because he already looked like he was about to lose it. It looked like his head was about to explode which was actually kind of funny but at the same time this was like a serious thing.

"I'm worried and sorry because Zoey I freakin love you! I know you may not want to believe it but I do! And no I'm not just tossing these words around I genuinely love you! I know you've had a rough past but everyone has at some point! I did! I get it you feel as if nobody could ever care or love you but I do!" He shouted.

Tears streaming down his face, I could tell he was a complete mess but I didn't know what to do. It was always me that was falling apart never another. Then again there was that one time Bum Bum was freaking out because Jackson had Namjoon over and Namjoon broke a glass vase.

"I know it's so wrong but it feels so, so right at the same time." And with that he pressed his lips to mine. His soft lips that tasted like cinnamon, the same soft lips that make me feel as if I'm floating on a cloud. When kissing him it feels as if I can do anything but at the same time we don't know each other.

Well he knows my story but I don't really know his. But at the same time I'm not sure that I want to know his story just yet.

If I'm being completely honest with myself then it feels as if I found love at the wrong time. My heart races when I'm around him yet I don't want to get too close to him, I don't want to be hurt even more than I already have been. But I think this is a risk that I'm willing to take, I'm ready to hear his story, get to know him better and possibly even trust him.

"So tell me what is you're story?" I ask him. He looks at me in the eye as he takes a deep breath, "Well where exactly should I start?" He says with a light chuckle, scratching the back of his neck.

"Start from the beginning." I say scooting closer to him like a child would during story time, "The beginning?" He asks while he looks like a lost puppy, "Yes, the very beginning. From whatever memory you can remember start from there." He chuckles at me, "Then the story won't ever end." I look at him and see something.

Something I didn't think that I would ever see.

A scared Jungkook.

He reminded me of what a deer caught in headlights is like. As he looks up at the sealing thinking about how far he should go back.

"Well let's see on September 1st 1997 a golden maknae by the name of Jeon Jungkook was born!" He said with his arms up in the air. A small laugh escaping my lips as he was adorable, "I was born into a rich family so I always had everyone coming at my little whines when I was a baby, had a baby bunny that was called kookie that was from my mom." He geared up almost at the mention of his mother.

"Tell me about you're parents, that's if it's okay with you?" I said with a concerned look as I didn't want to say anything that may trigger him.

"No it's fine. Well my dad he's the owner of Jeon enterprises so he was never really home. He was always a very busy man so we never had much family time together. At first I never really thought much of it, I always had friends from school too so I was never home much either." I listened carefully as I held onto his every word.

"When I was in high school I hung out with the wrong group of people I guess you could say. I was never home, ignored everyone who genuinely cared about me meaning my... mother." I could sense that the story was about to get very sad now.

"She always was there for me too... and I was so damn stupid at the time! Every time I would come home I would be wasted, so shit faced that I would fall flat on my face in the driveway. My so called 'friends' would just dump me off at the end of my driveway. The maids running out to get me and help me inside the house." He seemed so mad and disappointed in himself while saying this and here I am, would just act as if I'd never done a single thing wrong.

"My mother she would always tell the maids to leave as she wanted to talk to me alone her words didn't mean much to me at the time but now it hurts like a bitch.  She would always say 'I know you don't want to hear this but I'm telling you anyway, I love and care for you so much and I hope this is just a phase but remember I will never turn my back on you' and with that she would give me a kiss on my forehead." He started to really tear up at this point.

I put a hand on his shoulder nodding in case he wanted to continue or stop, however he wanted to interpret it.

"One night when I was out with my buddies I saw my dad with another woman. But I was so damn upset I made a fool of myself walking up to the two. They were definitely seeing each other and I also found out everything in that same night. I went home and had a long, long talk with my mother, finding out that their marriage was arranged and that she knew he was having an affair but she couldn't bring herself to call him out because she knew a huge scandal would break out." I can't even imagine if that was the cause.

In a way it reminded me of my parents though, even though my father beat my mother she still stayed with him.

"She mentioned how she once did love a man but she couldn't be with him as he was shot by a drug lord for something stupid my father once did. He screwed up once and he knew my mother's lover and so he told him that he had the money but her lover  didn't know of this and so the drug lord shot him right then and there." I was a little confused as to why he was getting upset and telling me this part of his story, it didn't seem important.

"After my mother watched her lover die she couldn't live anymore. She told me that she loved me and that I should follow my dreams no matter what and find a woman I can see a future with. We were in my bedroom at the time and I didn't entirely think anything of this until she got up and went to my winding jumping out, I was only 16 at the time and she committed suicide right there in front of me!!!" He broke down in tears.

It hurt, we both had to watch our mothers die.

"A year later my father brought around his mistress and her son...

Jeongin."

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Hey everyone! Sorry I haven't posted in a while, school just started and I haven't really had time to write lately. I hope now hearing Jungkook's past makes him and Zoey closer! I truly do ship them together🖤
Anyways....

I'M OUT!!!