A broken boy and cheap bottle of Whiskey [completed]

chapter 23

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Brian's p.o.v

It's been a week and everything is normal again, well with the exception of Zacky and friends.

I go to school then I come home get beaten amd go to bed crying. I haven't told Zacky it but I have still harmed, and im still at my worst point ever. Even having friends can't fix someone as broken as me.

I hide the bruises and cuts from them.

I really don't want  to be a burden to them. Last night I think was the worst night,  once I got home my father was waiting and he was very drunk. I cut deep that time wanting it all to end but the only thing holding me was zacky. I thought of him and I stopped instead crying myself once again to sleep.

when I woke up I was still laying down on the bathroom floor. My entire body hurt like hell and I pulled myself up to go take a shower.

when I got out I felt like shit, pain passed through my body my new cuts stung from the water and all my bruises where a deep shade of purple. I looked as bad as I felt with dark circles under my eyes I just looked drained of all engry.

I knew since it was a Friday zacky had planned a movie night with the guys but I took a rain check saying some bullshit excuse about having to help my grandad at his cement business early tomorrow morning.

I walked out into my dark room hearing my father slam the front door and his car pull away from the drive. I let out a sigh  of relief knowing I was alone.

I threw on any items of clothing I could find which just so happens to be some old basket ball shorts amd a baggy jumper I picked my skull beanie on my shelf and my bag heading down stairs.

I didn't want to Eat today so i decided I'd start walking to school.It was a slow and painful walk and even worse as I had forgotten my headphones at the house.

I was really not in any mood to talk to anyone so once I got to school instead of going to where the guys normally where I headed straight for home room not caring I was 15 minutes early.

I slumped down in my seat and placed my head on the table, maybe I could catch up on sleep now.

I have a feeling today was going to be slow amd painful.

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I managed somehow through the first few lessons, lucky I shared none with any of the guys yet but now it was lunch. Zacky had texted me but I have no energy to even reply to him.

I decided once the bell rang to head straight for out for a smoke. I rounded the corner to see zacky already sitting there with a cigarette effortlessly looking beautiful. he noticed my presence at look up at me with big eyes

"I thought you where ignoring me." he said in a feeble voice trying not to cry now.

" no zee sorry I have a bad bug and I really don't want to give any of you guys it. " I lied so effortlessly now only to protect him tho. I felt bad after each lie.

He looked me straight in the eyes.

I wanted to tell him but how could I, I couldn't loose him. He is the only thing good in my life.

But in a split second his sadness changed to anger.

"BULLSHIT BRIAN!" He shouted at me.

I was dumbfounded by his confidence.

"YOU DON'T THINK I KNOW IT WHEN YOU ARE LYING TO ME! HUH I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF LIES AND CHEATS IN MY PAST RELATIONSHIP AND I DON'T NEED ANYMORE FROM YOU." His voice filled with pure anger as he shouted.

he angrily got up stumping out his cigarette and brushed past me hitting out shoulders off eachother. I probably hurt more for me since already have bruises there from yesterday but I showed none of it.

Soon I stood all alone. my life in a nutshell. I sat by the wall for the rest of school smoking my lungs to death. it may not kill me yet but slowly it will as I breathed in the smoke.

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zacky's p.o.v

fuck! Brian's been off all week now. Now being Friday  I invited everyone over for movies but he didn't accept saying he had to help his grandad out bullshit I thought.

He was lying to me and I couldn't stand it! I've had way too many people lie to me before and I didn't think brian would become one of them. it was before school started at brian hadn't turned up at all. Nobody else seemed to care except me but I knew I didn't have any classes with him today.

great!  He's lying and ignoring me! I felt anger boil up within me as I sat thinking of him. soon lunch came around and I somehow knew he wouldn't be sitting with us today so I headed straight for our smoking area.

I hadn't been here since the accident and I could feel the shiver running down my spine remembering everything. As I waited I pulled out a smoke. But I soon heard movement I looked up to see a very tired and drained brian in front of me. my anger soon washed away at the sight and I felt on the verge of tears now

"I thought you where ignoring me." I only managed out.

" no zee sorry I have a bad bug and I really don't want to give any of you guys it. " 

I could easily tell he was lying  and it sent my blood boiling! I couldn't control my anger now

"BULLSHIT BRIAN!"  I screamed at his.

he looked complete surprised by my show of anger

"YOU DON'T THINK I KNOW IT WHEN YOU ARE LYING TO ME! HUH I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF LIES AND CHEATS IN MY PAST RELATIONSHIP AND I DON'T NEED ANYMORE FROM YOU."

I couldn't control my words and I really didn't want to see him I walked passed his banging our shoulders of eachother and back inside to the guys.

They instantly copped my bad mood and didn't questions it, I wanted today over with and to get home.

The rest of school was spent with my mind replaying the event feeling more anger at myself now for doing it. Damnit I fucked up!

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boom guy's! 

im getting back to my darkness! yahhhh!!

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