A broken boy and cheap bottle of Whiskey [completed]

chapter 30

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Brian's p.o.v

life is pretty good now, But. isn't there always going to be one. I can tell Zacky's wanting to take this relationship further now since we have been going out over 3 months now. But I just can't yet. Thoughts of that man from the last time stops me ever time. I know zacky would hurt me like him but every time I see him if zacky touches me.

I haven't told Zacky either and I know I should but im already broken enough as it is in his eyes adding more would make him just pity me even more and I don't want a pity relationship with him that or he'd leave me. Both are as bad as eachother.

its now 6:50am and I haven't got to sleep, when I do I have these terrible nightmare that my father comes back and hurts zacky. Once again I don't tell zacky any of this. I know I should we are in a relationship for christ sakes but I can't.

I head Maria downstairs going off to work, I had given her most of the money I stole from my father to help with supporting me too because she now have four kids to mind, maybe I should look for a job. maybe joe will hire me at his shop.

I get up and head down to  the kitchen to get some cereal, unlike zacky im an early riser so I always eat breakfast.

I sit in the comfort of my own silence thinking of what I would do today considering its Sunday I don't want to really do anything, a pajama day sounds perfect and work on my gutiar playing too.

After finishing my bowl of cereal and place it in the dishwasher I head into the living room to watch morning cartoons. Lucky for me old school scooby doo was on!fuck yeah!  I loved this show so much growing up. But I found my min wandering back to zacky and I's relationship, we haven't came out about it only Maria and our close friends where the only one's to know but we decided not tell anyone else.

My thoughts where interrupted by zacky, he entered the living room stretching and yawning he looked adorable as he did so.

"morning sleepy head! " I said with a smile.

"morning beautiful ." he leaned in planting a kiss on my cheek causing a blush.

he quickly dissappeared into the kitchen and arrived back with a bowl of cereal and positioning him at my side. we sat there in the comfort of each other and scooby doo. until he finally spoke.

"Bri I was thinking of heading out to the music shop for new string, wanna come? " he asked snuggling into me.

"does that mean I have to get changed? " i smiled asking.

"yes silly. " he chuckled.

"nah ill pass I want a pj day today." I let out a yawn as I finished.

"suite yourself lazy bumb." he laughed getting up to go get changed.

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zacky had left over two hours now and I began to wounder where he was. my worry grew bigger and bigger with each passing minute not even play my gutiar could calm me now.what if he is hurt? what if my father came back?  what if? what if?

All these scenarios where running through my head when I finally heard the door open and close along with more than zacky's voice,  he had someone here amd they where laughing.

I tried to act causal as i walked down stairs towards the voices amd laughter in the kitchen. As I rounded the corner I saw zacky talking to a very tall slender figure stand talking to him.

First thing I noticed was wow he was fucking gorgeous! his hair was a dark brown with some lighter patches. he looked lean and well  built but not too much he was smiling looking at zacky. he wore skinny jeans and a long black top. he noticed me first and then zacky.

I hated how zacky looked at him he looked like he should have a bucket underneath him to catch the drool as he talked

"heh there. " he said his voice sounded as if it had a southern twang to it and was deep.

"em hey." I managed I felt complete horrible since I was in a shitty pair of basket ball shorts and a oversized faded band top.

Zacky spoon to see me smiling looking at me.

"hey bri how's the pj dah going. " he said winking.

"its good. " I laughed  not to make it akward. I looked up to the stranger.

"oh right brian meet Dan, Dan meet brian. " Zacky motioned to each other on saying out names.

"hey there brian nice to meet you !" he offered his hand out as I took it

"same to you, but sorry how you know zacky here." I instantly regretted asking because I felt like a jealous boyfriend.

"oh right yeah me and dan used to be friends before he moved down south a few years ago. " Zacky interjected smiling.

"well more tham friends zee we did go out for a year. " dan said laughing.

I instantly felt as if my heart had been rippes out right before my eyes and the thought of this being zacky's ex. but I tried to concealed my pain.

"and you brian?" he asked raising an eyebrows.

I didn't know what to say but zacky answered for me instead.

"he's my really good friend who's staying with us now." he smiled.

'good friend'

I think that hurt more than my fathers beating ever did. Did he not wanting his ex know I was his. is he ashamed of me?.

"yeah good friends." I said repeating zacky's words not wanting to sound as hurt as I was.

"anyway I just came down for a drink of water and then back to practicing." I smiled fakely at the two.

but zacky seemed to intrigued in dan to notice me leaving.

As I walked back into my room I just wanted to crawl up into a bundle and cry my heart out.

"yeah good friends we are."

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