I sit in the corner of my room. I sunk to the floor with my back leaning against the wall. Tears streaming down my face. I've never regretted anything more.
What have I done?
I wish I could run,
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help out everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders
All I wanted to do is surprise my boyfriend instead I push him further away. I know how he's upset, I wanted to try turn his relationship with his father around. His father was so annoyed when he decided to quit college and start the band PrettyMuch. I just thought if his dad could see how far he's come and how much he's changed that he would realise that maybe dropping out of college wasn't the worse thing.
What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right, to get it right?
I wish I could go back and take back how it ended. His father had a massive go at him and I ended up stepping in and his father stepped out literally by saying "you're not my son anymore" I saw in Nicks face how devastated he was. I saw his heart break into tiny pieces in front of my eyes and it's all my fault. How can I put this right.
Can I start again, with my fate again?
'Cause I can't go back and endure this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes,
But if I get stronger and wiser, I'll get through this
I've tried to call Nick 156 times and texted him 209 times and still nothing not even a text saying leave me alone. Which I suppose no news is good news. Wait what am I saying. No it not. He's the love of my life and I've ruined the best thing in my life. I don't see anyone coming into my life who can make me as happy has this boy. I get up drop to my knees near my bed and clench my hands together and close my eyes and wish.
So I throw up my fists, throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send down a wish and I'll send up a prayer
And finally someone will see how much I care
I heard my phone ring. Sex Bomb😍 Nick was calling.
I took a huge breath in preparing to hear the words "we're over"
"Hi" You answered shakily. Trying to hold in the tears.
"Hi" nick said.
You could tell he'd been crying.
~phone call~
-=nick •=you
-I have something I need to say....
•no nick let me start. I need to say this. I'm so sorry and I know sorry doesn't even come close to fixing the mess I've made. He's your dad and I shouldn't have pressed his buttons. I just wanted him to see how much you've grown as a person and how much you've achieved already this early in in your career and make him see how much he has to proud of. I was hoping he'd see himself when he was younger in you....
- (y/n) I know you're sorry I know you had the best intentions. I know they came from the best place. I shouldn't have walked out like I did. I just couldn't bear what he had just said. Baby I love you loads and want to say thank you. Thank you for believing in me even when no one else did. You're the most amazing girl ever.
•I'm not I've just messed everything up for you.
-no you've made me realise all I need is you and the boys. Id love my dad to support me but if he can't then that's fine. It hurts but makes me more determined to show him I can do anything and show him what I can become with they help of you and the boys. To show him he raised a man. I love you.
•I love you too baby. You're so inspirational.
-I'm on my way over.
•I'll make you your favourite for dinner as an apology.
-you don't need to apologise but thank you. I don't know what I'd do without you.
• same to you baby.
•mwahh
-mwah
~phone call ended~
How did you end up with such an incredible human? You asked yourself you couldn't believe it.
Bit of an emotional one but it all worked out in the end. Hope you're liking these imagines.
Here for each and every single Beanz
Love y'all❤️
