Dear Diary,
I rung him. I was so scared, I felt like I was going to choke on my own words. I didn't expect him to pick up, he didn't for a while though. But he eventually picked up.
I started by saying hey.. not sorry or I miss you..just hey.
He said hi back.
That's a start right.
Well anyway. I told him I regretted what I said, how I acted.
He just went silent, like I didn't know what to do.
I began to speak again and he cut me off.
I was so nervous, I expected him to say, i can't get back with you because you don't trust that I love you. But no.
I remember his exact words he said.
"I miss you so much, I totally understand where you were coming from, I've been off, I know, it's because what I felt for you, ive never felt before in my life for anyone. I don't know how to deal with it but I realise now I should've talked to you about instead of ignoring you. Also I know we never see each other but I totally get now that I need to make time for you. Your my world (y/n) and I need you in my life. I love you. Don't ever doubt that, I know I gave you reason to but you can't ever doubt it from now on... that's if you'll take me back"
I was in utter shock, I had to process what I just heard. I remember what I said clearly.
"I miss you so much, I was an idiot to doubt you and again I should've talked to you about it instead of just blowing and breaking up with you. I'm so sorry. I love you more than words can say. So I'll take you back if you'll take me back???"
So I can finally say I'm happy again.
I'm so happy, I got my life back, my world has began to turn again. I feel like I'm back in control. I can smile again.
I love him so much.
There's no one I love more.
Don't tell him but I want to marry him.
28/08/19
I know this was v v v v short, but I got what I wanted to happen across, hope you guys like this?
Do you like the style?
How was your guys day?
Personally it's gone from good to bad for me.
