⚠️LANGUAGE⚠️
Why the fuck did I do it, why the fuck did I call him, why the fuck did I fuck him? I'm so fucking weak.
"Wish I could get a little un-drunk so I could un-call you
At five in the morning, I would un-fuck you"
I came to this party, thinking for once I could be Okay, I wouldn't need to feel his touch or hear his voice or even think about him. I thought this was the night I was going to move on. But nope.
I thought drinking would be the answer.
Because I can't be sober. I know what will happen.
"Honestly, this party's over
Everyone here should have gone home
But I'm afraid of being sober
'Cause the first thing I do when I'm alone
I start touching myself to the photos that you used to send me
I should have deleted, but kept it a secret
Is that crazy to do?"
I know we are over, done, finished. I know I did it too myself. You drove me to it. I was impatient, you didn't communicate, I just went psycho. You should've tried to explain.
"So I squeeze out the lime on the ice of my drink
And the juice hits the cuts on my fingers
It still doesn't burn as much as the thought of you"
I thought I was stronger than this. I thought, I believed I could do this without you. Maybe I need to rethink that because....
"Wish I could get a little un-drunk so I could un-call you
At five in the morning, I would un-fuck you
But some things you can't undo
I wish I could un-kiss the room full of strangers
So I could un-spite you, un-lose my temper
But somethings you can't undo
And one of them's you"
I know you've moved on but still I know oh still want me and truthfully I still want you, I shouldn't. But you don't help, you give me reason to still want you, it's not fair on you, it's not fair on me and it's not fair on her.
"I'm afraid to turn the lights on
I don't want to face this rebound
Is it weird if I come over?
I want to but I know that she's around"
Imma try harder. Imma stay sober. Imma forget you. Imma be okay. Im going to move on from you. I don't need you.
*starts scrolling through phone*
Shit....
*walks to the fridge*
Shit....
*makes food*
Shit....
Maybe I ain't that strong.
"So I'm touching myself to the photos that you used to send me
I should have deleted, but kept it a secret
Is that crazy to do? (Haha)
Oh, I'm hungry and wasted and my hands are shaking
I shouldn't be cooking, be spilling hot water
It still doesn't burn as much as the thought of you"
I can't do this no more.
I'm so over it.
I can't pretend to be strong.
I need you.
I can't tell you though....can I.
I'm done.
I don't wanna do this without you. I can't.
"Been through every emotion
Right now I'm sad and broken
Like the bottles on the floor, but I'm too buzzed to clean them up
Wish I could get a little un-drunk
So I could, I could un-love you"
*picks up phone*
I can't. Can I?
*scrolls through contacts*
Don't!
*see his name*
Don't!
*clicks on his contact*
No!
*presses call*
Why the fuck!?
Him: Hello
You: "Wish I could un-love you"
Him: same but I can't.
You: I love you
Him: I love you too
You: come back, I need you
Him: I'm on my way.
You: what about her?
Him: it's already over, I ended it after the other night. I'm coming baby.
I love this song, have done for a while. Itszee1214 thanks for reminding me I can use songs as inspiration.
I hope you guys like this.
I kinda do.
If you don't get it let me know I'll explain it.
