Bestfriend mo siya pero hindi niya alam.
Bestfriend mo siya pero hindi ka niya itinuturing na bestfriend.
Bestfriend mo siya pero wala kang importansya sa kanya.
Bestfriend mo siya pero may bestfriend siyang iba.
Bestfriend mo siya at bestfriend ka rin niya pero mas mahalaga para sa kanya ang iba pa niyang bestfriend.
Nasaang sitwasyon ka diyan? Ako kasi nasa pangalawa. Pwede ring pang-apat o kaya ay 'yong pang-lima. Ang saklap no?
"Bestfriend kita?"
"Hindi naman ikaw ang bestfriend ko."
Iyan ang kadalasan kong naririnig sa isang taong itinuturing kong bestfriend. Actually, hindi lang bestfriend, more on kapatid. I don't know when and how I befriend that uling, well, does it matter? Ang alam ko lang, I am very comfortable when I'm with that uling to the point na we hold hands, we embraced, we joked around. He knows about my personal problems and family problems, but I do not know 'bout his. Well, wala siguro siyang problema other than how to ingudgod other school when they are playing basketball and how to make palusot for him to not attend SSG meetings.
Sa bawat sagot niya sa linya kong 'Bestfriend kita", unti-unting nabibigyang linaw sa utak ko ang isang katotohanang nabalot ata ng mga papel na konikolekta namin o kaya ay natabunan ng plastic bottles, isang katotohanang kasalukuyan kong nililinaw sa aking utak dahil sa puntong ito, sa puntong isinusulat ko itong sanaysay na ito, ay may ini-indian akong isang inosenteng bata na nasobrahan sa pagkaclingy at pagkawaley: The truth that you can't force someone to make you his/her bestfriend just because you treat him/her as your bestfriend. Parang you can't force a girl to like you just because you like her; you can't force a boy to love you just because you love him. Hindi naman kasi sa lahat ng panahon, your feelings will be reciprocated.
Pero kahit na I am not one of that uling's bestfriend, I still want him as my bestfriend and still love him just as much as I love my li'l bro. I don't care if he doesn't make me, basta I will make him feel that he is one of my best boy buddies.
NOTE: Thank you, Colgate for messaging me that quote saying, "Sometimes, you need to know your place in someone's life because you might get hurt if you expect too much". Kahit na wrong timing ka dahil sa sensitive pa ako sa mga ganyan 'til tomorrow at saka ka pa nagsend ng ganyan, okay lang. At least, may natutunan ako. Haha! :D
