The clock says 3 pm.
I'm still not asleep.
Eyes opened in my bed, I can't stop thinking.
I have now fourteen days to leave Calvin.
Fourteen fucking days.
I turn at him. He's sleeping. His short dark brown hair are falling on his closed face. I pull them off of it, quietly and slowly with my left hand.
His lips are a bit opened. They are beautiful. They fit perfectly with his tanned skin. If I had a normal life, I'd probably would like to be his girlfriend.
But I don't. Have a normal life.
I would like to take his head with both of my hands and gently kiss him.
But I can't.
Stupid, what am I thinking ? He's in love with Ashley, not you. Remember ? You promised yourself you would never ever find or even search Love.
I remember.
Of course I remember. But still...
I get my face closer to his. If only he knew. I feel his breath on my cheek, on my ears, on my lips.
He's just a stupid boy. You never paid attention to him before ! Actually, you never paid attention to anyone.
My lips are almost touching his. My whole body is burning. I can't do this.
Of course you can't ! Patient 99, does that reminds you of anything ?
Right.
I get away from him, and turn myself so my back is touching his angelic face. I feel a tear in my eye, that I quickly rip off.
Then I go back to Reason.
What was I thinking ? It's just a fucking stupid boy. Not even a crush. I'm only sad because I'm about to leave this life and it totally wasn't in my plan. Not because I'm about to leave him.
I close my eyes, not convinced by myself.
Stupid, stupid boy.
With stupid, stupid lips.
Patient 99 doesn't know Love.
And never will.
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Different sides (tome 1)
RomancePatient 99. She was born in a sanatorium. She came from orphanages to orphanages. As soon as she could she left these places of false hope. She creates herself names, lives, job, money. She is Ashley Gordon, student living in a flat with her boyfr...
