Bottoms Up [FINISHED]

Part 30

I wait for the doctor to come and tell me what happened and what was wrong with me. Eventually he came in and explain to me what was wrong with me. " we diagnosed you with anxiety disorder usually people with anxiety and fear of the past, we figured out that that issue was why you threw up." He explains a little more to me about what I could do to fix this but I don't think I can after what happened today I just need to sleep and try to figure out what I could fix probably just move away and leave everybody I can't do that I know I can't do that I have nowhere else to go. Nowhere else to stay. After the doctor leaves I get many looks from everybody in the room. Then I start to get questions of why I had anxiety and depression and fear. I knew I was going to come to this I knew it was time to just tell everybody what my past was like.

"When I turned 18 I started to get into modeling and when I start to get into modeling I started to get into drugs but at first it wasn't crazy drugs it was drugs to make me look better in thinner and modeling stuff, but I still didn't have the skills. So I started to take more and more and more and more until it got to me. They fired me from all my modeling jobs cuz I looked the way I looked
Then from there on I just went downhill. I met up with people, I did favors for people, I messed up my entire life completely. Once I finally realized what was going on with me I had fear from the past that my ex the one you guys saw at Starbucks was going to hurt me again was going to hit me and abused me and even more things I don't want to mention."

I Pause for a minute to collect my thoughts. " that's why when I saw that note in that Polaroid I feel so ill and disgusted of myself I felt sick and wondered why I would ever do something like that with someone like that all the anxiety just came out of my mouth and so scared that something was going to happen to me." Stop again and start to apologize repeatedly to everyone telling everyone that I'm sorry I ever came here and I mess everything up for them and I put them in danger. So then I feel most people come closer to me and I feel a pair of strong arms wrapped around me I I looked to see who it was it was everybody. Shane told me that he really cared about me and that I could stay at his house for as long as I liked. But I kept telling him that it wasn't safe for them. But he wasn't taking it. He already had some of my stuff packed and so did I. Just in case anything ever happened to me really kept telling him that it was an issue for me to stay at David's house but he kept telling me that I should just stay with him.

I Never been so happy to be around people who cared about me who love me for who I was and for the story told. But there was still a problem he was still after me but not everyone knew is going on they could really protect me. I'm glad I told them I'm glad I told him what happened to me what my story was and how I'm going to move on for my story and make a new one and and finally get him out of my life and get him behind bars.

Andrew told me that I would be out by tomorrow I was pretty excited to get out of this Hospital in back in the warm bed not the hospital but it wasn't warm but it wasn't my bed so. I start to feel a little bit tired so I told everyone that they should probably go home and let me get some rest. Some of them really didn't want to stay and take care of me but the doctors were having it. But someone did stay. Andrew. He had told the doctors before that he was my boyfriend and that he would stay here and keep me company it wasn't okay for me to stay here alone and let my thoughts consume me. I was really happy that Andrew was staying I'm going to go talk to him a little bit more. And I can finally sleep soundly with him next to me well not next to me but sitting on a chair next to me I still did feel really safe around him. The safest I've ever been.